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Thursday, March 27, 2003 ( 3/27/2003 10:27:00 PM ) Lisa People are always telling me to smile, xºx Like smiling is gonna take away all the hurt and all the pain. xºx Well i've tried that. i've tried hiding sorrows xºx and covering the sadness in my smile.. and xºx what i've learned is that when it hurts this much inside, xºx your heart always has a way of showing it, no matter xºx how many mask's u wear. I hate my parents soo much. I didn't even do anything wrong and they're yelling at me right now. I came home from Joanna's house and had a bowl of salad. Then I called Mario, but he didn't answer. He called back maybe a 1/2 hour later? So I went upstairs to talk. I come back down, and Vince is holding my glass of Pepsi and asks if it's mine. I say yeah and he asks if I'm done with it and I say no. Then he gets all mad and starts yelling at me. What did I do!? I seriously can't take it anymore. I DID NOTHING WRONG!! Yesterday I had an orthodontist appointment, but I didn't know, so I fell asleep after school. So Vince starts screaming at me cause I missed it. Not only did I not know about the appointment, but it wasn't even on the calender. So how the Hell can he go and yell at me for that!? I honestly can't take it anymore. Why do people like to cause me so much pain? People are always telling me to smile, xºx Like smiling is gonna take away all the hurt and all the pain. xºx Well i've tried that. i've tried hiding sorrows xºx and covering the sadness in my smile.. and xºx what i've learned is that when it hurts this much inside, xºx your heart always has a way of showing it, no matter xºx how many mask's u wear. # Monday, March 24, 2003 ( 3/24/2003 06:16:00 PM ) Lisa ` , ! my hearts at a low, i'm so much to manage * ` , ! i think you should know that i've been damaged * ` , ! i'm falling in love, theres one disadvantage * ` , ! I think you should know that i've been damaged * Hmmm....This whole war thing is pissing me off. We die, we die. We live, we live. It's horrible, I know, but I really don't care about it. I drank tooo much ice tea today. lmao. Ahhhh my tummy's starting to hurt. haha. I'm not even thirsty!! lmao. I have plans for this weekend! YESSSS! Let's see if I actually get to do any of them, though. Or even go out cause of my crackhead parents. I'm doing something with Sandy in the moring, afternoon-ish time. I'm going to lunch with Vanessa cause we wanna catch up on everything and still have to exchange Christmas presents. lmfao!! I might do something with Sam later that night. Possibly something with Amanda and Jackie on Saturday night or Friday night, I'm not sure. Amanda invited me, so whatever. Jill's boyfriend's birthday's on Friday and she's gonna surprise him...sorta. awwww!! There's like 2389572394 apostrophe s's in that sentence. haha. Annnywho...I think that's about it, my stomach's starting to hurt a wiw bit. hehe. Wiw. =D (That's Lisa Talk for little.) I might be going on with this Damian kid next weekend, too. =/ Just to "hang." lol. No I'm neither high nor drunk...just hyper and I don't know why...Possibly from the 11 glasses of sweet sweet ice tea I've had. Really, it's sweet. lol. All my plans for this weekend are for Friday...I wanna do something on Thursday and Saturday. Possibly a movie? Maybe I'll ask Jiwwian. (Also, Lisa Talk, but for Jillian. hehe) Welp, that's it cause I'm mad tired. Love Liiiiisa!!!!! ` , ! my hearts at a low, i'm so much to manage * ` , ! i think you should know that i've been damaged * ` , ! i'm falling in love, theres one disadvantage * ` , ! I think you should know that i've been damaged * # Sunday, March 23, 2003 ( 3/23/2003 10:13:00 PM ) Lisa <;*;>Damn, I hate the way you know me and Damn, you kill me when you hold me Like I'm your world, like this wont hurt Like a favorite curse hittin every nerve<;*;> So other than Friday night/extremely early Saturday morning, this weekend sucked. lol. I've been drinking a lot! (NOT alcohol). Like Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday I had something to drink before school, at lunch, during PE, then during 8th/9th. I've had like 11 glasses of ice tea yesterday and today. lol. I didn't even do any of my homework this weekend...go figure. I REALLY have to start doing it! Josh called me again yesterday. =/ I feel kinda bad for not wanting to hang out with him. Don't get me wrong, he's nice and whatever, but I'm just not interested him in that way, you know? Argh...Well, I think I'm gonna go to bed in a few minutes. It's only 10:13, but I'm pooped. lol. Love "The Lisa" <;*;>Damn, I hate the way you know me and Damn, you kill me when you hold me Like I'm your world, like this wont hurt Like a favorite curse hittin every nerve<;*;> # ( 3/23/2003 04:17:00 PM ) Lisa I've actually thought about dying my hair red. lol. Other people have told me to do that, too. Interesting... 
You Are A Redhead!Fun, innocent and flirty, guys are drawn to your firey ways. Your fun personality drives the men wild, and they just can't enough of you! With that girl-next-door charm and those bright eyes, you can get what you want in a snap... Keep them beggin' honey!! What's *Your* Inner Hair Color? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva # Saturday, March 22, 2003 ( 3/22/2003 03:00:00 PM ) Lisa ~*~Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change*Can I change*Would I change*Or am I always gonna be the same*I blame the world for making me such a freak*But the world wants to blame it on me*(my life is twisted)~*~ hehehe Since I couldn't go out with Bijan yesterday, he came over around 1:30 AM. lmfao. We just stood in his car and talked. He's soo cute! awww!!! He didn't shave just for me cause I like stuble! lol. =D He kept holding my hand and everything, I was like awwww!!! Alright, I know, I'm a loser. Big deal! I asked him if I could drive and he said yeah! But I didn't cause I didn't want to kill him. haha. We just stood in his Jeep and talked. I don't like his jeep. lol. I hate those kind of models. He said he's getting a new car soon, probably a Lexus Coupe. Ummm...he left around 2:30 and I went to beddy bye after I turned off the computer and got off line. We wanted to drive around, go somewhere, or go to his house, but he lives like 40 minutes away and I didn't want him driving a billion times just for me. lol. That's about it...Lisa... ~*~Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever change*Can I change*Would I change*Or am I always gonna be the same*I blame the world for making me such a freak*But the world wants to blame it on me*(my life is twisted)~*~ # Friday, March 21, 2003 ( 3/21/2003 07:33:00 PM ) Lisa < 3 h e a r t b r o k e n < 3 | When I finally got my chance with you | | Everything went wrong | | I wish could be with you again | | But not everyone gets that second chance | | Even if we're not going to be together | | I'll love you, always and forever | < 3 o v e r y o u b a b e < 3 *Warning: Contains Vulgar Language.* My parents said I can't go out now. I was getting ready to take a shower and they're like "what are you doing?" I said, "I'm getting ready to go out." "Who said you could go out?" "Ummm...I told you yesterday and Wednesday." "When are you going out? How old are they? Who are you going with? Where are you going? Do I know this person? Can we meet this person? How are you getting there? What's their number? What's their address?" So I lied a little. "I'm going out around 7:30 or 8. I'm going with Bijan, Joanna's cousin, to the movie. He's 17, he just turned 17. I met him in October. We're going to the movies. I'm taking the phone with me. He's driving." I hate my parents. Honest to Hell, I hate my parents uncontrollably. They're ALWAYS letting my brother go out. Oh, but I forgot, he's a boy and he's 18. He hasn't been 18 forever, now has he!!? He takes the train somewhere to meet someone that he met online, but they say nothing. He walks out of the house at 10PM and comes home at 5:30 in the morning, but they say nothing. He has the car every fucking day of every fucking week so I can't even get any driving practice, and they say nothing! He NEVER NEVER has to leave information with them! He never mentions where he's going or who he's going out with or leaves numbers or addresses or names or ages or anything! But noooo not for Lisa! Lisa has to have EVERY FUCKING PIECE OF INFORMATION POSSIBLE FOR THEM!! I hate them sooo much! Why can't I just go out for ONE FUCKING DAY AND ACTUALLY ENJOY MYSELF!!!!!? You wanna know what fucking Vince said to me after that? He said "why don't you go out for pizza tomorrow and bring Christina." CHRISTINA!? HELLO! She's 12 and I'm not bringing her out with me and Bijan! Then Vince said "we could bring you and stay with you." My mom said no. At least she's not as stupid as I thought she was. My mom's like "why don't I take you to the movies and I stay a few rows behind you?" Ummm...NO! Now, why the HELL would I want to bring her!? I'd rather have Christina there! At least Christina would go away if I asked/told her to! And if she did go to the movies (and there's no way in HELL I would allow my mom to go with us) why would we want her to sit behind us? Uhhh then she'd be able to fucking see us!! Duh you dumb fuck! ARGH!!! So, I take it back. She is stupidier than I thought she was. I'm going cause I'm toooo pissed off to write anymore and I hate my parents. I hope the fucking world burns some time soon. Oh, and you will NOT believe what my mom asked me! She asked me if he was sexually active!!! Why the FUCK! would you ask me that!? Yeah, he is, but I wasn't going to tell her either way. I hope they rot in fucking Hell! < 3 h e a r t b r o k e n < 3 | When I finally got my chance with you | | Everything went wrong | | I wish could be with you again | | But not everyone gets that second chance | | Even if we're not going to be together | | I'll love you, always and forever | < 3 o v e r y o u b a b e < 3 # ( 3/21/2003 06:27:00 PM ) Lisa xxxxxxxxxxxxx spread the love, not the butter, flip the pancake, not the bird xxxxxxxxxxxxx Josh just called me. lol. He wanted to hang out, but I can't. I told him I was going out today and tomorrow I'm going to my cousins...which I think I am cause we haven't been over there for like over a month. So, yeah. I feel kinda bad. He told me to call him after I got home, but if I'm leaving around 8, I'll probably be home late, so I don't think I'll be able to call him. Look, I'm already avoiding him and I just meet him yesterday. Stupid mean me!! xxxxxxxxxxxxx spread the love, not the butter, flip the pancake, not the bird xxxxxxxxxxxxx # ( 3/21/2003 05:01:00 PM ) Lisa you can SLEEP in your own bed tonight. i hope for your sake you don't w a k e up as broken as i am hehehehe. I'm going out with Bijan today! YEAH!! lol. I'm excited, but scared. We're probably just gonna hang out at his house. He's gonna pick me up around 8 cause he just went to get a hair cut and I'm gonna take a shower and possibly a nap, too, cause I'm tired. I was practically falling alseep in class. lol. But I didn't, so that's good. My day's going pretty well so far. School was good, besides the fact that I was sooo freakin tired. In French, I did my History homework. lol. History, we pretty much talked the whole day and she apologized about the homework from the night before. We had to outline the second section of a chapter, but it was 10 pages long and no one, including the teacher, knew. So she said we didn't have to have it done today. I actually played in PE, but then the stupid teacher said he didn't see me play. Sometimes he makes me mad! He's always picking on me! lol. I asked him why and he said cause you're Italian. I said Marisa's Italian and you don't pick on her. He's like, OK, I will tomorrow. BUT HE NEVER DOES!! lol. In English, we just worked on the 8 worksheets she gave us on Wednesday(?). My Art teacher wasn't there yesterday OR today! Yeah! So I did my Biology and studied for the test. Biology, we got to vote if we wanted to take the test Monday and watch the coverage on the war. Or take it today and start the next chapter Monday. 2 people voted that we take it today, everyone else voted for Monday. lol. So I have a Biology test Monday. Good, cause I need a LOT more time to study. haha. Alg/Trig. I never do anything in that class, I just write. So, that's what I did and tried not to fall asleep. Then I came home, had some fruit snacks-hehe-gave some cereal to my sister cause this kid is ALWAYS eating and then went online, talked to <3<3 Bijan and Mario. <3<3 Awww! I love those 2 guys!! lol. Lisa you can SLEEP in your own bed tonight. i hope for your sake you don't w a k e up as broken as i am # Thursday, March 20, 2003 ( 3/20/2003 04:26:00 PM ) Lisa love that we can't have is the one. .·` ··· .that lasts the longest, hurts the. ··· .·` .deepest, and feels the strongest. `· So, Wednesday I agreed to meet up with this guy Josh at Shop-N-Save at 3:00, after school. So there's a train and I get there 10 minutes later. I wait and he never shows. Luckily, I saw some chick from school, so we went back to my house. lol. She was waiting for the bus, but didn't want to go home. So we get to my house and chill. We went online, on her screen name. Then upstairs into the living room. Around 5:00, Josh calls and was asking why I wasn't there. So, I told him I got there late cause there was a train and all that. He asked if I wanted to meet him then, but I said no cause Kelli was there. So then we got high (my first time). Then we called Josh like an hour later and told him to meet us at 7-11 in 5 minutes. Yeah...he's ugly! Now, I know that's mean and I know I'm not pretty or whatever, but this dude, was...BAD! So then we went back to my house and they got high. At 7, he left cause we had to go in cause dinner was ready. lol. I felt kinda bad, though cause we only hung out with him for 30 minutes maybe and he had to walk like 2 miles to go back home. Plus, like me and him weren't even talking to each other. I wouldn't sit or walk by him or anything, which makes me feel kinda bad, but DUDE! Argh! Never mind. lol. Josh: Ok. So let me tell you about this guy. Ummm...Where to start? lol. He's white, 5'11, has glasses, hazel eyes, and light brown hair. He got expelled from school because he was in a fight and went to throw a bunch, but some teacher walked in front of him and he knocked 2 of her teeth out. So not only did they expel him for that, but they sent him to a mental institution for his "anger problems." lol. But he's a cool guy. Bijan: This kid is making me mad! He's always saying I'm all talk. So I told him to pick me up Friday and we'll hang out. We were online and he didn't have my address. We talked from 10:30 PM to 2:00 AM, which is why I'm so tired right now. lol. So the whole time we were talking, everything was going really well. Then I said I had to go cause I needed to go to sleep since I had to be up in 5 hours for school. Then he's like "ok. good night lisa. all talk, all the time. i understand though..blah blah blah" So I'm sitting at the computer, about to call him at 2 in the morning to yell at him. Instead I just say "friday, pick me up...5**6 west **** place...good night" and then I signed off. So I'm hoping he'll call me later today or go online some time soon. It's raining outside, so I'm gonna go play in the rain right now then take a little nappy. lol. Lisa love that we can't have is the one. .·` ··· .that lasts the longest, hurts the. ··· .·` .deepest, and feels the strongest. `· # ( 3/20/2003 12:53:00 AM ) Lisa 
You Are an EXPERT in BedYou know precisely what you’re doing when the sheets are pulled down and the panties go right along with them. You’re also super confident, and rightly so. Because any man who may be fortunate enough to find himself between your legs is a happy man, indeed. You’re the type of woman men brag about in locker rooms: knowledgeable, adorable, and lickable. You’ve gotten to the point that you don’t even have to try so hard. It all just comes naturally: the mouth, the hips, everything underneath. One lovely little package. Are *You* Good In Bed? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva # Monday, March 17, 2003 ( 3/17/2003 09:42:00 PM ) Lisa RaPiNg +++ Of ~*~ ThE ///// iNnOcEnT --- yOu {~} KnOw, ThE rUiNeR rUiNs ~*~ EvErYtHiNg ///// He SeEs. --- NoW {~} tHe OnLy ~*~ ThInG ///// lEfT --- iN {~} mY fUcKiNg ~*~ WoRlD ///// iS...wEaRiNg --- YoUr {~} DiSeAsE. Why do my parents make me do something, then complain about the way I do it? If you don't like it, then don't effin tell me to do it!! Seriously! My parents make me wash the dishes and my mom's yelling at me cause I go slow. I have little hands! OK!? Then they yell at me cause I didn't move the 3 forks to "make room for the rest." Hello! They're 3 effin' forks! They don't take up that much room! Then because I go slow, I'm wasting water, water that my parents pay for. Not only that, I put the silverware in first, then the plates, then the cups. OMFG! THAT'S HOW THEY DO IT TOO!! Then they make me sweep. I start at one end, they tell me to start at the other. I start at the other end, they tell me that's wrong. How can you possibly sweep wrong? It all ends up in the dumpster, doesn't it!? Then making my bed. I don't pull the blankets tight enough. Or I don't pile my 4 pillows the right way. Or I didn't put my dolls (Yes, I still put dolls on my bed) on my bed one day out of the week. Then when they make me dust. First I dust, then I sweep. My parents say I'm supposed to sweep first so the dust goes up. I say you dust first cause the dust falls to the ground. Either way, it all ends up in the dumpster...sooner or later. Argh. Parents suck sometimes!! Lisa RaPiNg +++ Of ~*~ ThE ///// iNnOcEnT --- yOu {~} KnOw, ThE rUiNeR rUiNs ~*~ EvErYtHiNg ///// He SeEs. --- NoW {~} tHe OnLy ~*~ ThInG ///// lEfT --- iN {~} mY fUcKiNg ~*~ WoRlD ///// iS...wEaRiNg --- YoUr {~} DiSeAsE. # ( 3/17/2003 06:17:00 PM ) Lisa HAPPY IRISH DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!
( 3/17/2003 04:54:00 PM ) Lisa HAPPY IRISH DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!! # Sunday, March 16, 2003 ( 3/16/2003 10:20:00 PM ) Lisa opinions are like assholes ... ( 'x''xx everybody ' s got one ! Whoa! I just like gulped down a can of pink lemonade in like 2 minutes. lol. But I don't think that that was a good idea. My stomach's still hurting me, but it's a lot better since I threw up my cereal from this morning. haha. Like everyone wanted to know that. =D BIJAN'S GONNA CALL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! YEAH FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! Welp, I'm gonna go cause my head hurts and I'm getting a little dizzy. Plus, I want some more lemonade since I drank it all already. hehe. Love Lisa opinions are like assholes ... ( 'x''xx everybody ' s got one ! # ( 3/16/2003 06:56:00 PM ) Lisa  Your Guy is Prince Charming!The man for you is Prince Charming. You need a sensitive, romantic man who will understand and listen. You enter into relationships for love and need a committed man who will provide plenty of love and security. ( 3/16/2003 05:03:00 PM ) Lisa she likes your charms -- understand she's `' ., ( #- * · · • ]} ! .. - ^ _ [ jUSt A SERiAL kiSSER } Argh. I'm sick. I woke up and I was freezing (and I still am) and my head was hurting and I had a slight fever and my hands were shaking like mad and I felt like I had to throw up, but I didn't. I did a little before 4, though. lol. I have to do my homework, but my head is driving me crazy and I'm dizzy. I can't even walk sttaight. But I know I'm gonna have to go to school tomorrow, cause my mom will make me, cause she's like that. Argh. I hate being sick. At least I don't feel like I have to throw up anymore. Lisa she likes your charms -- understand she's `' ., ( #- * · · • ]} ! .. - ^ _ [ jUSt A SERiAL kiSSER } # Saturday, March 15, 2003 ( 3/15/2003 05:44:00 PM ) Lisa if i could reach up and grab a star for every time y o u made me smile, i'd be holding the entire night sky in the palm of my hand . . . Jill slept over yesterday!! YEAH! My sister, Gabriella, kept hugging her and stuff. We were both like WTF!? lol. Anywho...We rented some movies and they didn't have Alice In Wonderland for Jill. Poor Jill. =( We got lots of candy, too! hehe. She fell asleep around 11:30 cause my mommy drugged her. lol. Not really, though, she gave her medicine cause she's allergic to my cat and the medicine made her all sleepy. Poor Jill, again. =( She had to leave early, though cause she had to go somewhere. Today, my parents kept yelling at me...FOR EVERYTHING! They don't know how it makes me feel and they don't know what I do to myself when they scream at me. It's just me. Nick went to the coffeehouse after work. When he came home, my mom went to bed, then he went to his friend, Chris's house. He also came back at 5:30 in the morning. But my parents didn't know that. So I'm getting yelled at for reading a letter I got in the mail today (even though my dad gave it to me 2 seconds before) so I go "Why are you yelling at me for reading a letter that you just gave me!? I'm not the one who leaves without telling anyone, then walks back in at 5:30 in the morning!" You wanna know what they do? My mom tells Nick his curfew's now 12 (suuuure) and then yell at me some more. "He's 18. You're 15. I shouldn't have to tell you to clean the house, fold the clothes, wash the dishes. quack quack." Well, you shouldn't be telling an 18 year old that either, than, now should you? I really hate my parents. I wanted to cut myself sooo bad today, but instead I took a nap. Now I have to go to my stupid uncle's house-yep, the one that threatens to cut of my fingers and all that stuff-to see the new baby. I don't CARE about the new baby! I HATE THIS EFFIN FAMILY AND CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT OF THIS HELL HOLE OF A HOUSE! Till the next miserable day, Lisa if i could reach up and grab a star for every time y o u made me smile, i'd be holding the entire night sky in the palm of my hand . . . # Thursday, March 13, 2003 ( 3/13/2003 07:45:00 PM ) Lisa to be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle which any human can fight and never stop fightin Jill's sleeping over tomorrow! =D I just hope my dad doesn't act like...him. =/ She'll probably have to come later in the night (around 6 or something) cause my parents are going to/will make me clean my room and stuff. Poor, Jill. My mom's gonna make her eat A LOT! Awwww. =( Today, we had a 1/2 day. I took a nap around 3 and woke up a little after 6. hehe. FUN! FUN! Ahhhh! I feel so refreshed. lol. Life's been boring. Nothing much to say. Lisa to be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best to make you everybody else, means to fight the hardest battle which any human can fight and never stop fightin # Tuesday, March 11, 2003 ( 3/11/2003 08:00:00 PM ) Lisa ac1d t3arz is me LilLal421: hi ac1d t3arz: hello ac1d t3arz: so...whats up? LilLal421: nm LilLal421: asl ac1d t3arz: 15-f-chicago LilLal421: i go to your school ac1d t3arz: ohhh LilLal421: i am in yor school ac1d t3arz: and what school is that LilLal421: i mean your class ac1d t3arz: uh huh LilLal421: i think u r sexy ac1d t3arz: i dont know any1 from california LilLal421: i don't live in CA, i was born there, now i live in chicago, see i know this sounds like a prank, but i am really in ur class, see my friend knows you and i got ur screen name, and i wanted to ask you to the dance but i am really shy, and thats why i am right here right now... LilLal421: talking 2 u ac1d t3arz: but no1 knows this sn LilLal421: u r hot LilLal421: well i do ac1d t3arz: uh huh and hows that LilLal421: wait a second, this is who? because i think this is the right person, but c i dunno...... ac1d t3arz: what school do u go to LilLal421: lzmss ac1d t3arz: wrong person then LilLal421: what school do u go 2? ac1d t3arz: kennedy =( LilLal421: then this is the right person ac1d t3arz: then whats my name LilLal421: i used a fake school name to see the truth ac1d t3arz: uh huh then whats my name? LilLal421: i dunno u tell me ac1d t3arz: katie LilLal421: just to be sure ac1d t3arz: so is it me ur looking 4 LilLal421: uh huh katie, really i know its fake so just tell me the real u? ac1d t3arz: why do u tell me the real me ac1d t3arz: *dont LilLal421: what is ur e-mail???? LilLal421: i need to send you a personal lettter...... ac1d t3arz: i dont give out info unless i know who u are or u know me...so who am i since u know me? ac1d t3arz: yeah, i didnt think u knew me LilLal421: its starts with an l LilLal421: a L* ac1d t3arz: uh huh but thats not a name now is it? ac1d t3arz: its right on my profile genious, it shouldnt take u that long LilLal421: so do u still have a boyfriend? ac1d t3arz: u tell me LilLal421: yes ac1d t3arz: whats my last name LilLal421: because i have a surprize 4 u LilLal421: THIS IS UR BOYFRIEND, i love you.....!!!!!!!!!!!!! LilLal421: did you know how strict u are? ac1d t3arz: who is this? LilLal421: ur boyfriend.......r u still strict? LilLal421: lol ac1d t3arz: what the hells my last name then LilLal421: Slow down, hunny!!!!! LilLal421: don't you believe me? LilLal421: God! LilLal421: Ask me tomorrow at school okay? ac1d t3arz: ure pissing me off! LilLal421: Okay then, are u breaking up wit me? ac1d t3arz: i dont have any classes with you. u probably dont even go to the same school as i do LilLal421: I know, can't you say, JOKE?????? ac1d t3arz: im not a humorous person ac1d t3arz: i think i know who this is...but no1 has this sn LilLal421: okay this isn't your boyfriend, this is rachel LilLal421: jk, not rachel, LilLal421: then who am i LilLal421: ha ha.....and no i am not a idiot ac1d t3arz: cathy? but no1 has this sn ac1d t3arz: i wasnt gonna say that u idiot LilLal421: u got me, its cathy, i made a new one 2 fool u!!!!! LilLal421: SRY, i didn't know you were going to take this so seriously.... ac1d t3arz: uh huh and howd u get this sn LilLal421: your mom..... ac1d t3arz: funny asshole LilLal421: thanks, i think i would rather a bitch tho LilLal421: lol LilLal421: so waz^? ac1d t3arz: howd u get this sn "cathy"? LilLal421: your mom..... LilLal421: lol ac1d t3arz: im being serious, so answer the goddamn question LilLal421: no, i was looking around and i looked up lisa, so i imed every lisa and well i looked at your info, and well i knew it had to be u LilLal421: and whats up with the naked pitchure of u? LilLal421: picture* ac1d t3arz: oh yeah funny haha LilLal421: seriously ac1d t3arz: go 2 hell LilLal421: u first.... ac1d t3arz: im already in hell LilLal421: i guess so ac1d t3arz: since u know me, u should know that already LilLal421: just plz don't commit suside okay.i luv u LilLal421: don't do that.... ac1d t3arz: so u decide to make a name, look me up, piss me off, and expect me to believe u LilLal421: pretty much LilLal421: i think it would bother u, u r never happy.... LilLal421: i know lisa is so ugly, i can't believe this, howcha get her screen name anyway? LilLal421: OMG!!!!!! wrong person, i didn't mean it really? LilLal421: bye ac1d t3arz: what r u talking about? LilLal421: never mind, bye ac1d t3arz: how is this!? Previous message was not received by LilLal421 because of error: User LilLal421 is not available. Yeah, Cathy my ass. She wouldn't do that...I think...I IMed her on another one of my AIM names and she said it wasn't her, but she didn't know my AIM name, so we'll see. Then again, she did get mad because I posted something up her and the person was writing in the same font as she was. I swear, I'm gonna beat this person's ass. Feel free to IM that bitch ( LilLal421) any time. =) # Monday, March 10, 2003 ( 3/10/2003 09:18:00 PM ) Lisa So you made your decision I guess its you that I'll be missing I lie alone in bed just wishing That I had been the one ... My Aunt Rosie (by marriage) just had her baby...it's a girl! Now they have one boy and one girl. awww. lol. Yep...That's it. Lisa So you made your decision I guess its you that I'll be missing I lie alone in bed just wishing That I had been the one ... # ( 3/10/2003 04:31:00 PM ) Lisa  Click here to find out what element YOU are! # Saturday, March 08, 2003 ( 3/08/2003 09:22:00 PM ) Lisa dark for fear of failure an inner gloom as wide as an eye and fermenting roiling hate death grip in my veins unveiling rancid petals flowering forth foul nectar the space between a blink and a tear Yesterday I took a nap and woke up aroun 5:30. Then Jill called. So I took a shower and went to her house a little after 6. Then we went out with Angie, Stephanie, and Amanda. We got pizza (that was yummy!) then cruised around for a while .lol. Then we went to this girl Robin's house. She's cool and she has pink hair! AWESOME! We stood by her house for a while then went to get ice cream. Then we bombed someone's car with our ice cream. hehe. They knew who it was, but I didn't. Then me and Jill went to her house around 10:30...maybe? She straightened my hair, too. We went to bed around 1:30. Today, me and Jill woke up around 11. I kept waking up during the night. grrr!!! I can never sleep through the night nowadays. She trimmed my hair for me! =) And restraightened it cause it got a little wet. Then he boyfriend Tyler came over and she fixed his hair for him. lol. I think he thinks I'm crazy. =D I'm not though! ::cough:: lol. Ummm...we went to KFC for lunch and I got a taco. Jill told me to get more, but I wasn't hungry-and I know I eat slow!! =/ We went to Blockbuster cause I had a gift card and Jill wanted to rent Alice in Wonderland. hehehe. But we didn't have a Blockbuster card, so we couldn't rent it. =( So we went back to Jill's house. She was gonna pierce my ear for me! I even got it numbed up and everything, but then she chickened out. =*( Tyler wouldn't pierce it either and I said I'd pierce it myself, but Jill said no. =( Poor ear was all cold. lol. I was sniffing the rubbing alcohol and the nailpolish and they kept looking at me all weird. What!? I like sniffing things! hehe. I kept chewing on my hoodie sleeve, too. It's not my fault I'm crazy! My parents raised me wrong! hehe. He's a cool kid. I can't think of what else we did...I'm brain dead right now...too much sniffing for one day. lol. Jill keeps hitting Tyler. Poor Tyler. =( We watched the Little Mermaid. We had steak, salad, and mashes potatoes...with gravy!! lol. But I didn't eat the steak cuase I don't eat steak. That's all I could think of right now. Her mommy said I could sleep over tonight, but my mommy said no. =( Stupid mommy. =( But Jill gets to sleep over next Friday! We're gonna push my sisters down the stairs! mwuahahahaha!! ::evil grin:: Maybe we'll go to the mall cause we couldn't today cause it rained and Jill said Tyler needs new pants cause he only has one pair of jeans. awww. lol. So maybe we could meet him up there next Saturday. Unless my brother'll drive us, and he could drive down to pick up Tyler, too...I'll even bribe him if I have too! haha. We'll see...Lisa dark for fear of failure an inner gloom as wide as an eye and fermenting roiling hate death grip in my veins unveiling rancid petals flowering forth foul nectar the space between a blink and a tear # Friday, March 07, 2003 ( 3/07/2003 04:42:00 PM ) Lisa So you made your decision I guess its you that I'll be missing I lie alone in bed just wishing That I had been the one ... I'm sleeping by Jill's house today. =) Tomorrow we're going to the mall with her boyfriend, Tyler and maybe one of his friends. =) Fun! Fun! lol. I'm gonna take a short nap now cause I'm going to her house soon. LiL Lisa! So you made your decision I guess its you that I'll be missing I lie alone in bed just wishing That I had been the one ... # Thursday, March 06, 2003 ( 3/06/2003 08:36:00 PM ) Lisa "You could slit my throat and with one last gasping breath, I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt." I've been thinking a lot lately. Well, a lot more than usual and it's been keeping me up some nights. I've been tired lately, I struggle to stay awake in my last class. It's horrible. I can't take a nap after school because then I won't be able to sleep at night. I can't sleep as it is now, though. I'll be in bed by 10/10:30, but won't fall asleep till 12/12:30. Maybe I need some sleeping pills. Here's a few things that I've been thinking about: Life What's the point of it? We do pretty much the same thing every given day. Well, I do anyway. I wake up at 7:15 and get out of bed at 7:20. I turn off my alarm clock, turn on my light. Then I go to the bathroom, wash my face, brush my teeth, go back to my room, change, comb my hair, put my jewelry on. Then I put on my jacket and school ID. Go downstairs, sometimes I get something to drink, sometimes I don't. I get in the van, drop off the girls, pick up Angela, and go to school. Go class to class. Then I go home, make my bed, get something to eat, and mope around the house the rest of the day. Day in, day out, it's always the same for me. So what's the point of it? We deal with so much crap and so much pain, be it physical, emotional, or spiritual, whatever. And then me. I cause myself physical pain and it causes other emotional pain. I know that, too, but it doesn't make me stop because it makes me feel better and that's how I am. It takes my mind off the emotional pain I have & makes me focus on te stinging feeling on my wrist. It heels me one way, but harms me in soo many other ways. Religion How do we know there's a "god?" Sorry, but I think devoting your life to something that isn't a 100% real is a HUGE waste of time. I don't understand how people can have so much faith in someone/something that might not even be real. Yes, I'm Catholic, but I don't believe in "god" or heaven. But I'm not the kind of person that needs proof to believe something. I don't need to be able to see, hear, or feel something to think it's real. I believe in aliens, the devil, and Hell. I guess I just can't believe in something that's made out to be so good or so nice. Jokes I'm an extremely humorous person & you'll probable never find me in a serious mood. I can take a joke, trust me, I can; but after a while, it begins to piss me off. I can take jokes about my height cause yes, I know I'm short. It's in the genes. In fact, I make fun of my height myself. After a while, though, I get tired of it. Lay off me once in a while. Seriously. But I don't tell anyone to shut up & if I do, they don't take me seriously cause I'm not a very serious person. Smoking/Drinking Who cares!? I don't, but whatever floats your boat, you know? I don't understand why people make such a big deal out of this. Yes, you can get cancer & yes you can die, but if that's how you want to live, I'm cool with that. I hate when people try to make other people change. They can only change if they want to change, you know? If you wanna spend your money on drugs or whatever, that's your business. Not mine. It's your life and no one else's. School No matter what you say, the people in school seperate by race. There aren't any cliques in school...I think, but if you go into the different lunch periods, you'll always, always see the Polish w/the Polish, the Mexicans w/the Mexicans, the Puerto Ricans w/the Puerto Ricans, etc. But you'll also find a few tables that are mixed. The table I sit at is mixed. Jason is a mix of stuff. Amina is Arabian & German. I'm Italian. Jill's also a mix & Deanna is Mexican. Piercings/Tattoos Yes, I want some piercings and a tattoo or 2. I'm not sure what kind of tattoos I want, but they're going to be some sort of design. Where? I want 1 on my tail bone, 1 on the back of my neck, 1 between my shoulder blades, 1 on each hip & maybe 1 around my belly button. Piercings: my belly button 4 times (1 on each side-up, down, left, & right), my labret, my tongue web, eye brow, ears (all the way up) my tongue, & my lip (either on the left or right side, not the middle). I was thinking about 2 other areas, but I won't mention them here. ;) My parents make a big deal because I want an industrial piercing on each ear. Wait till I'm 18. Wait. The 1st thing I'm gonna do on my birthday (after I renew my license or whatever) is go to Jade Dragon Tattoo & get a few piercings and tattoos. Screw my parents & my uncles' threats! My uncles' found out about me wanting my tongue web pierced and the industrial piercings & they not only threatened me, but offered to do the piercings themselves...with a butcher knife, a staple gun, or a nail gun. Great uncles I have. ::cough:: They threatened to not only rip the earrings out of my ears (and tongue), but they'd cut off my fingers and beat me. Talk about child abuse!!!!! I'm not their damn kid, so they should mind their own damn business. I hate my family. They're all on crack. War I have mixed feelings about this. Sure I think we should bomb Iraq & North Korea...but why? What is this going to accomplish, you know? If Iraq bombs us, overall, they win. Sure, there might be a few "Americans" in Canada or Italy or whatever, but they bombed our land. What about Hawaii? Did they forget about Hawaii and Alaska? Or will they bomb them seperately? I don't think we should go tow ar because it's a waste. It's an act of hatred. We'd be killing thousands/millions of people. Not just a bunch of random people, either. 2 specific races. For what? Becuase they started it? I believe in the whole "an eye for an eye" rule, but killing a whole race/nation means you're on crack! Me I'm not a complicated person, but still, no one understands me. I went to catholic school kindergarden-8th grade, but don't believe in "god" or heaven. I hate when people stare at me & I hate being touched. I only hug a certain few & hardly kiss anyone that doesn't need to be kissed or I don't want to kiss. You don't respect me, I don't respect you. It's as simple as that. You treat me like crap, I treat you like crap. I like piercings and tattoos. I lvoe physical pain. I hate emotional pain & can't stand when people say things about me. I argue a LOT! Probably more than I need to. I can admit when I'm wrong, but never do when it comes to my parents. I'm not a very open person & writings is the easiest escape for me. I can tell any1/thing I love them, but I can never say it to my parents or the adults in my family. My favorite colors are black and blue. I hate pop music & rap (except for Nas and Eminem). I hate all female "singers" except Pink. I hate the colors pink and purple. I hate preppy people. Hot Topic is my favorite store. I wear over 20 bracelets every day. I have many bad habits that include: biting my lips, playing w/my necklaces, twirling my hair, cracking my neck and knuckles, etc. I hate shopping. I only swear when I'm pissed. I like older guys. I'm 15.5 years old. My birthday is April 14, 1987. I was born at 8:15 in the morning. I'm an Aries. I'm 100% Italian. I have dark brown, curly hair & dark brown eyes. I hate science & math the most. Math used to be my favorite subject until 7th grade. English is not my favorite subject. I cut myself. I have tried to kill myself over 3 times. I'm a virgin. I want 1 kid (boy). I want to name my kid Morgan. My favorite bands/musicians are: blink 182, sum 41, new found glory, good charlotte, korn, slipknot, and andrew w.k. I've never had a detention. I have 1 older brother and 2 younger sister. I'm a middle child. I've been a middle child since I was 3. I have a wicked sense of humor. I hate talking on the phone. I'm extremely shy when I first meet someone unless I'm w/someone I'm comfortable around. I don't know how to play chess. I'm the setter on the volleyball team. I was captian and MVP this year. I was MIP last year. I hate life. There's sooo much more, but I'm still soo simple. You just don't know it, yet...Lisa "You could slit my throat and with one last gasping breath, I'd apologize for bleeding on your shirt." # Wednesday, March 05, 2003 ( 3/05/2003 08:17:00 PM ) Lisa lisavolley41387: do you sleep on your stomach? Matt: yea sometimes Matt: y? u wanna? Matt: haha lisavolley41387: hahha lisavolley41387: sure! lol Matt: my pp might be in the way if u lie on my stomach lisa lisavolley41387: ::earmuffs:: ewwww my virgin ears!! lmfao lisavolley41387: haha lisavolley41387: well i could kinda take that as a compliment lisavolley41387: lol Matt: hehe Matt: so are we talking clothes orr .......... Matt: :-P Lisavolley41387: hey now!! hehe Matt: are u cute naked? lisavolley41387: ha! nooo Matt: sure ya are! lisavolley41387: how would u know? Matt: hehehe Matt: im picturing it right now lisavolley41387: ewwwwwwwww! i'm tellin frankie on u and hes gonna kick ur ass! lol Matt: its ok cuz it 4 u lisavolley41387: awwww Matt:Im not cute naked :P Matt: I need to work on my abs Matt: heh lisavolley41387: lol i like ur tummy Matt: i like ur boobies ;) lisavolley41387: perve!!!! ure soo lucky i know u! otherwise id have to beat u with my stick Matt: u have a stick lisavolley41387: yes lisavolley41387: from a tree u dork Matt: suuure lisavolley41387: i hate u! im leaving now! grrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!! Matt: no cum bak auto response from lisavolley41387: matts being a meany so i'm not talking to anyone. hmph! Matt: cum bak Matt: cum bak Matt: cum bak lisavolley41387: ALRIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIGHT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'M BACK!!! Matt: yea lisavolley41387: im ccccoooold! it's freezing in this effin house! =( Matt: ill keep ya warm ;) lisavolley41387: no! Matt: =( Matt: y? lisavolley41387: cause ure a meany Matt: =*( lisavolley41387: im just kiddin! u know i love ya!! =D Matt: i no Matt: now i gtg-davies startin to cry lisavolley41387: awwww give him a kissy 4 me! Matt: ok Matt: do i get a kiss 2 lisavolley41387: ha! not right now lol Matt: oh =*( lisavolley41387: lol later ::wink:: Matt: k Matt: bye lisavolley41387: ciao babe *hehehe! This is a friend of mine. He's 17 and has a baby named Davie (lol-that ryhms!!). They're both sooo cute, but in different ways. haha. # ( 3/05/2003 05:56:00 PM ) Lisa if you were the last tear in my eye, i would never cry because of the fear i'd have of losing you Days Without Cutting: 4 Days Till I Turn 16: 40 Days Till I'm Legal: 769 What My Fortune Cookies Said: 1. "With a few changes, requests should be granted." 2. "You shall soon make a long overdue personal decision." I hate when people stare at me or crowd around me. Yesterday, I was on the phone with <3Mario<3 and stupid Christina just had to come in the living room, sit down, and stare at me. So for like 10 minutes, I'm trying to get her out of the living room. I couldn't talk in my room cause the phone starts buzzing and stuff. lol. So then she comes back in and I yell at her. He's like "daymn! You snapped! blah. blah. blah." Well, yeah, after I tell you to leave more than 3 times, I get kinda pissed. She kept staring at me, too! I hate when I'm sitting at the computer and people are all up in my space. It's like, geez, back away! My mom hit me cause I kept shifting away from her. OK, I'm not a very touchy-feely person, so why the Hell do you think I'd want you around me!? Argh! Families! Why can't they just not stare at me and give me my effin space! Give me my freakin arm room damn it! Lisa if you were the last tear in my eye, i would never cry because of the fear i'd have of losing you # ( 3/05/2003 04:36:00 PM ) Lisa in a WORLD that URGES you to fit in SOMETIMES you have to STAND out I don't know WHAT my dad's problem is, but he needs to shut the Hell up! Everyone's fine all day long. He comes home from work and starts yelling at everyone! We do nothing wrong, but still get yelled at. He's pissing me off soooo much these days. He's like "I come home from work, you're on the computer. I go to bed, you're on the computer." First: I'm in school for 7 hours every day. So I can't be on the computer all day. Second: I get home from school 5 minutes before he comes home from work, and in that time, I make my bed and/or wash the dishes so no one else does. Third: He goes to bed after the news is done, unless it's a weekend, I usually get off the computer at 9, 9:30, or 10; unless I'm involved in a conversation, which is pretty much never. And what's he doing now? Oh, he's taking a nap! What did he do when he came home from work today? He yelled at us. Did he yell at Nick? Noooo! Of course not! That would just be CrAzY!! ARGH!!!!! Lisa we're the future but we keep the past alive saving punk rock is what we strive # ( 3/05/2003 10:15:00 AM ) Lisa Please: wring the blood from my hands. Don't pretend that you understand me. I don't even want you looking at me. "Get Inside" by Stone Sour I had school today, but didn't go. It was weird. My alarm clock didn't go off. It's set to go on at 7:15 and turn off at 8:45. The dream I had was kind of weird, too. It was us getting ready to school to school this morning, but my dad was home, too. My mom kept yelling at me to get up, but I wouldn't. So then she screams my name really loud and I wake up (for real). So when I actually wake up, I look at the clock and it says 8:05. So I call a few people, but no one picks up. So I'm like "great! We have school." lol. I called Jill and her mommy picked up and I asked if Jill went to school and she said no. I said do we have school and she said yeah. She asked if I wasn't sure and I said I just got up. lol. So I asked my mom if I should just go in late and she said just forget. Yeah for me!! Around 9, I remembered about my record. It's broke now. =( I haven't missed a day of high school yet, except for the week we went on vacation last June. Damn me! Damn me to Hell! grrrr!!! lol. Lisa # Tuesday, March 04, 2003 ( 3/04/2003 09:30:00 PM ) Lisa The only thing good about snow is that there's a chance of a snow storm which might get us out of school for a day or two. I think we have school tomorrow, though. We always have school. Argh. Maybe my mom will let me stay home if we have school, though. Yeah...right. I didn't even do any of my homework. tsk tsk. I have to start doing it. lol. I could do History in French. Copy someone's Biology and/or English; or do Biology and/or English in homeroom since it's 40 minutes tomorrow. Double argh. a href="http://www.swankyspork.com/tests/bodypart/" target="bp"> 
# ( 3/04/2003 08:35:00 PM ) Lisa Mario [8:31 PM]: ciao bella ci sentiamo piu tardi Lisavolley41387 [8:32 PM]: thats mean! u know i dont know what that says =( Mario [8:32 PM]: it means.......hey beautiful girl we'll talk later Lisavolley41387 [8:33 PM]: ok ciao awwww! How sweet is that! lol. I looked it up on Google, too...yeah, that's what it means. hahaha. # Monday, March 03, 2003 ( 3/03/2003 04:25:00 PM ) Lisa Yesterday I had to go to my cousin JoAnn's confirmation party. It was sooo boring!!! I don't talk to anyone on their side of the family, so I pretty much watched TV with my couin Frank, some of his family, Nick, and Gabriella. Ahhhh. VERY boring night. I have to do my homework, but I don't even know what I have. hahaha. I know that I have a US History test tomorrow and we could use our notes (like always) but I didn't take any notes, so I'll probably do that in French class tomorrow. I think I have English, but I think I did that already. I'm not sure though. My head's starting to hurt. Later, Lisa All these games you play, you're messin with my head. You're messing with my head... # ( 3/03/2003 02:07:00 PM ) Lisa This was in a zine I recieve. It's hilarious. lmfao. Wellhung: Hello, Sweetheart. What do you look like? Sweetheart: I am wearing a red silk blouse, a miniskirt and high heels. I work out every day, I'm toned and perfect. My measurements are 36-24-36. What do you look like? Wellhung: I'm 6'3" and about 250 pounds. I wear glasses and I have on a pair of blue sweat pants I just bought from Wal-Mart. I'm also wearing a T-shirt with a few spots of barbecue sauce on it from dinner. It's smells funny. Sweetheart: I want you! Would you like to screw me? Wellhung: OK Sweetheart: We're in my bedroom. There's soft music playing on the stereo and candles on my dresser and night table. I'm looking up into your eyes, smiling. My hand works its way down to your crotch and begins to fondle your huge, swelling bulge. Wellhung: I'm gulping, I'm beginning to sweat. Sweetheart: I'm pulling up your shirt and kissing your chest. Wellhung: Now I'm unbuttoning your blouse. My hands are trembling. Sweetheart: I'm moaning softly. Wellhung: I'm taking hold of your blouse and sliding it off slowly. Sweetheart: I'm throwing my head back in pleasure. The cool silk slides off my warm skin. I'm rubbing your bulge faster, pulling and rubbing. Wellhung: My hands suddenly jerks spastically and accidentally rips a hole in your blouse. I'm sorry. Sweetheart: That's OK, it wasn't really too expensive. Wellhung: I'll pay for it. Sweetheart: Don't worry about it. I'm wearing a lacy black bra. My soft breasts are rising and falling, as I breath harder and harder. Wellhung: I'm fumbling with the clasp on your bra. I think it's stuck. Do you have any scissors? Sweetheart: I take your hand and kiss it softly...I'm reaching back undoing the clasp. The bra slides off my body. The air caresses my breasts. My nipples are erect for you. Wellhung: How did you do that? I'm picking up the bra and inspecting the clasp. Sweetheart: I'm arching my back. Oh baby. I just want to feel your tongue all over me. Wellhung: I'm dropping the bra. Now I'm licking your, you know, breasts. They're neat! Sweetheart: I'm running my fingers through your hair. Now I'm nibbling your ear. Wellhung: I suddenly sneeze. Your breasts are covered with spit and phlegm. Sweetheart: What? Wellhung: I'm so sorry. Really. Sweetheart: I'm wiping your phlegm off my breasts with the remains of my blouse. Wellhung: I'm taking the sopping wet blouse from you. I drop it with a plop. Sweetheart: OK. I'm pulling your sweat pants down and rubbing you hard tool. Wellhung: I'm screaming like a woman. Your hands are cold! Yeeee! Sweetheart: I'm pulling up my miniskirt. Take of my panties! Wellhung: I'm pulling off your panties. My tongue is going all over, in and out nibbling on you... ummm... wait a minute. Sweetheart: What's the matter? Wellhung: I've got a pubic hair caught in my throat. I'm choking! Sweetheart: Are you OK? Wellhung: I'm having a coughing fit! I'm turning all red. Sweetheart: Can I help? Wellhung: I'm running to the kitchen, choking wildly. I'm fumbling through the cabinets, looking for a cup. Where do you keep your cups? Sweetheart: In the cabinet to the right of the sink. Wellhung: I'm drinking a cup of water. There, that's better. Sweetheart: Come back to me lover. Wellhung: I'm washing the cup now. Sweetheart: I'm on the bed arching for you. Wellhung: I'm drying the cup. Now I'm putting it back in the cabinet. And now I'm walking back to the bedroom. Wait, it's dark, I'm lost. Where's the bedroom? Sweetheart: Last door on the left at the end of the hall. Wellhung: I found it. Sweetheart: I'm tuggin' off your pants. I'm moaning. I want you so badly. Wellhung: Me too. Sweetheart: Your pants are off. I kiss you passionately our naked bodies pressing each other. Wellhung: Your face is pushing my glasses into my face. It hurts. Sweetheart: Why don't you take off your glasses? Wellhung: OK, but I can't see very well without them. I place the glasses on the night table. Sweetheart: I'm bending over the bed. Give it to me, baby! Wellhung: I have to pee. I'm fumbling my way blindly across the room and toward the bathroom. Sweetheart: Hurry back, lover! Wellhung: I find the bathroom and it's dark. I'm feeling around for the toilet. I lift the lid. Sweetheart: I'm waiting eagerly for your return. Wellhung: I'm done going. I'm feeling around for the flush handle, but I can't find it. Uh-oh! Sweetheart: What's the matter now? Wellhung: I've realized that I've peed into your laundry hamper. Sorry again. I'm walking back to the bedroom now, blindly feeling my way. Sweetheart: Mmmm, yes. Come on. Wellhung: OK, now I'm going to put my...you know...thing...in your... you know...woman's thing. Sweetheart: Yes! Do it, baby! Do it! Wellhung: I'm touching your smooth butt. It feels so nice. I kiss your neck. Umm, I'm having a little trouble here. Sweetheart: I'm moving my ass back and forth, moaning. I can't stand it another second! Slide in! Screw me now! Wellhung: I'm flaccid. Sweetheart: What? Wellhung: I'm limp. I can't sustain an erection. Sweetheart: I'm standing up and turning around, an incredulous look on my face. Wellhung: I'm shrugging with a sad look on my face, my wiener is all floppy. I'm going to get my glasses and see what's wrong. Sweetheart: No, never mind. I'm getting dressed. I'm putting on my underwear. Now I'm putting on my wet nasty blouse. Wellhung: No wait! Now I'm squinting, trying to find the night table. I'm feeling along the dresser, knocking over cans of hair spray, picture frames and your candles. Sweetheart: I'm buttoning my blouse. Now I'm putting on my shoes. Wellhung: I've found my glasses. I'm putting them on. My God! One of our candles fell on the curtain. The curtain is on fire! I'm pointing at it, a shocked look on my face. Sweetheart: Go to hell! I'm logging off, you loser! Wellhung: Now the carpet is on fire! Oh nooooo! Sweetheart: Bye!!! # Sunday, March 02, 2003 ( 3/02/2003 12:59:00 PM ) Lisa I'm dreamin! I'm a dreamer! No one believes me! And you don't either! I've been getting e-mails from people complaining about what I post on this. Sorry, but it's my blog. It's my feelings. They're my words. I can post whatever I feel like and if you don't like, you do NOT have to come here and read this. Complain all you want, but I'm not going to change anything and I'm not going to take any of my entries out. You'll just have to wait till I post stuff so that the entry that you don't like goes into the Archives section. If I feel like I hate you at the moment, then I'll write/type about it. If the next moment I feel like you're the greatest person in the world, then I'll write/type about it. So go screw yourself and leave my alone cause honestly, I couldnt care less. I post what I want and I'll continue to post what I want. Lisa # ( 3/02/2003 12:56:00 PM ) Lisa These are a few tidbits from a few of my poems. Lisa And every time I talk to him, A smile appears on my face, But when I call it a day and go to bed, I can't help but wish that I was dead It's funny how fast life can change How in one minute he can forget your name He goes with the next bitch that he sees He'll probably never remember me But all's well that ends well Cause I know we'll meet again in hell. Just hearing your voice brightens my day And I stumble over what I want to say I never thought love would be for me ...And I was right; we weren't meant to be. I would travel from here to the Nile Just to hear his voice or see him smile But he doesn't love me And my love for him can never be If only love came easily... And I sit behind the wheel Feeling things I never thought were real And you just found out how I really feel But you were a few seconds too late ...A knife to my wrist And with a stab and a twist, I will be no more And the last noise I hear is the opening of the door... # ( 3/02/2003 12:43:00 PM ) Lisa 10 simple ways of how not to live 10.) Thou shall not shoplift. 9.) Thou shall not smoke pot. 8.) Thou shall nt smoke Cigarettes. 7.) Thou shall not Get bad grades. 6.) Thou shall no get suspended from School. 5.) Thou shall not Argue with Parents. 4.) Thou shall not intentionally hurt themselves. 3.) Thou shall not Curse. 2.) Thou shall not Vandalize Public/Private Property. 1.) Thou shall not get in trouble with the cops. # ( 3/02/2003 12:41:00 PM ) Lisa ...Figures...  take the death quiz. and go to mewing.net. laura = great. # ( 3/02/2003 12:37:00 PM ) Lisa *Warning: This Entry Contains Swearing.* Yesterday I was getting yelled at-go figure. So now, it's final, I'm not getting anything pierced. My dad was yelling at me for like an hour. He said no one can use the computer unless it's homework. Like he knows what's homework and what's not. Anyway. So I had to clean my room, but that's what I do every Saturday, so it's no big deal. I tried piercing my ear, but the damn ice pack wouldn't numb it and I didn't feel like cleaning up blood anyway. I cut my wrist 5 times yesterday with my mom's razor. I even cut my arm with a safety pin, but I think that cut healed already cause it wasn't deep or anything. So, yeah... For some reason, this is what I thought about on the way to my grandparents' house last night. I really hate people. Mostly the people who go to their parents to get stuff. It bothers me because I have to save up to get things for myself. Some spoiled little brat wants a cell phone. They go to mommy and daddy to buy it for them. Mommy and daddy even pay for it monthly or buy them minutes, whatever they're plan might be. Little spoiled brat wants a car. Mommy and daddy by it for them and probably pay for most of the insurance and stuff. Now, you could say you have a job and bought the car yourself, but I don't think a single male 16 year old sophomore in high school could afford a 2002 Pontiac Grand Am SE. I don't know. Maybe they could, but they have to have a pretty DAMN good job to pay for all of that. Two examples: Chris' parents bought him a jeep like 2 or 3 years ago. They just bought him a Pontiac Grand AM, but I'm not sure what year I think 99 or something. It's kind of old. My cousins (who shall remain nameless cause one's being a brat right now) get whatever they want. One of my cousins got a new car. One got a grand piano. Yeah, and get this. When my aunt and uncle bought her the piano, she didn't even know how to play it yet. Yep, they bought her a grand piano because she wanted to learn how to play it. Why does this make me so mad? Cause I have to actually get a job to buy and pay for what I want. Which, to me, is a good thing because then I won't have to depend on someone else to buy me things I want or need. It just bothers the Hell out of me that you have to go to someone else (especially your parents) to buy you something. Get your lazy ass up, get a job, save your goddamn money, and buy it your fucking self! I hate people like that. I'm glad I have to get a job; it gets me out of this Hell hole for a little while. # ( 3/02/2003 12:15:00 PM ) Lisa To You written 2-17-03 10:43 p.m. My heart beats faster My head pounds with pain Tears stream down my face As I run to my room You yell at me for making fun of you, Which is something I didn't even do You yell at me for using the computer You yell at me for not sweeping or washing the dishes And when I go to my room, I take out my razor, Remove my bracelets, And cut myself again and again I watch as the blood seeps from my skin Then I get out my paper and my pen And I write Mostly, I write about shit I sit in the corner of my room As my body trembles, As I blare Staind from my cd player But no one comes to check on me And when I think of this, More tears drip onto the paper Please kill me now Because I can no longer go on You cock suckers don't know how I feel You probably don't even care The words on the page are all a blur As I pour out my heart and soul I can't remember the last time you told me you loved me You probably never have You tell me you want me out of her when I'm 18 I probably can't live that long No on tries to comfort me No one bothers to see how I feel The screaming and fighting will have to end But I'd probably kill myself by then The last thing I want to say to you two: Is I FUCKING HATE YOU! Hanging written by me 2-13-03 3:00 p.m. I wrap the rope around my neck And make a tight knot To go on any longer, I cannot I step up on the stool People can be such fucking tools I wrap the rope around the pipe And take my last breath of life I step off the stool And memories blur through my mind, like an image in a pool I struggle as I gasp for air If only someone cared... My eyes roll back into my head And soon I am dead 3:05 p.m. Self-Inflicted Pain written by me 2-9-03 1:01 a.m. I bring the kinfe to my arm I love to cause myself harm I cut myself and watch it bleed It helps me deal emotionally I have died emotionaly So there is no need to save me I drag the knife into my skin If only she didn't marry him Then maybe I wouldn't be here Or maybe somebody would actually care I cover my scars up pretty well So nobody can see them and tell This thing I do has a name It's called causing Self-Inflicted Pain It helps me deal with my fucked up life And once again, I get my knife I repeat the process over again Trying to make my life end My body begins to burn When will my parents ever learn? They don't know what they do to me They don't know I hurt myself physically I quickly put the knife down Because I thought I heard a sound I turn around and see her looking at me, Watching my arm as it slowly bleeds And then she begins to cry, It's easy to tell why Her big sister is hurting herself And she knows her big sister needs some help I walk over to her and give her a hug She is one of the few that I actually love But not a single tear rolls down my face And I tell her I don't belong in this place I walk her out and close the door And now I can't take it anymore I once again get my knife, But this time I cut too deep and I take my life. # Saturday, March 01, 2003 ( 3/01/2003 12:16:00 PM ) Lisa "I'm only me, that's all I can be No more no less, don't second guess I love, I laugh, I live, and cry I've wished sometimes that I could die Some days I'm funny others I'm not Sometimes I'm in overdrive and can't stop You may not like me, but that's OK This is me and it's how I'll stay" I saw that on someone's profile and really liked it. # ( 3/01/2003 01:25:00 AM ) Lisa Just because I smile, doesn't mean I'm happy...Look behind the smile and you'll see all the tears inside. Cathy and Justin talked for like an hour. Me and Cathy talked but I didn't talk to Justin. =/ She said she was going to send me the conversation because he was asking her some personal questions. I don't really care, though cause he's stupid. I already answered every question he asked me...some very personal ones, too. Like in all seriousness, the kid's not that smart. Either is Cathy, so they belong together. She asks me what should her AIM sn be, what should her icon be, what an orgasim is and if boxers and briefs are the same. Hello! Every idiot knows this stuff! durrr!!! She said he asked her what an organsim was. Ok??? Yes, he's hot and has a Hell of a voice and GORGEOUS eyes, but he's a moron. Sorry. Then she asks me what she should tell him! HELLO! TELL HIM THE TRUTH! And if you don't want to tell him the truth, tell him whatever you want to tell him. Duh! Just because I smile, doesn't mean I'm happy...Look behind the smile and you'll see all the tears inside. # |
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