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Wednesday, April 30, 2003 ( 4/30/2003 10:51:00 PM ) Lisa Hmmm...Yesterday I fell asleep around 5, woke up at 7:30 and then ate dinner. When I finished eating, Sam(antha) called and asked if her and Jonathan could come over. Sam came a little after 8. She said she hadn't eaten all day so I asked if she wanted something to eat and she had rice and a porkchop from dinner. lol. Then we went online and she started talking to Bijan and Jonathan came over around 8:40-ish...maybe? After ringing the neighbors door. lol. Sam IMed Allen on my SN and was pretending I was like some stalker. lol. (He's in a band...Fent 21). Later she told him that I said he had nice hands and I wanted a piece of that. lmao. I did say he had nice hands, so that's partially true. So Sam called Bijan childish and then signed off line. We got to my room and start watching Gilmore Girls because I taped it. Then the phone rings and Christina comes upstairs and says "it's perverted Bijan." haha...I wonder if he heard that...Anywho. So he's pretty much yelling at me on the phone and we hang up. Then he calls back again and I told him to go to Hell and then hung up. Then he calls back again and we're through...100% over...for the 4th time. lmFao. Lisavolley41387 [2:43 AM]: fuck you ass hole Bijan [2:44 AM]: remember LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE Lisavolley41387 [2:44 AM]: same to you buddy. dont bother jill or sam either Bijan [2:44 AM]: i dont have time for games or your bs Lisavolley41387 [2:44 AM]: right Bijan[2:44 AM]: i already hooked up with jill Bijan[2:45 AM]: sam might be next Bijan[2:45 AM]: i dunno Lisavolley41387 [2:45 AM]: alright, keep pretending you did Bijan[2:45 AM]: she lives closer to the expressway than you do. Bijan[2:45 AM]: ;-) Lisavolley41387 [2:46 AM]: so what? doesnt mean shit, now does it buddy? my grandma lives pretty damn close too. did you hook up with her too? Bijan [2:46 AM]: exactly.... Lisavolley41387 [2:46 AM]: my cousins live right next to my grandma...them too, right? Bijan [2:46 AM]: how would i know where she lives Lisavolley41387 [2:46 AM]: you dont know where jill lives either Bijan [2:46 AM]: that she lives closer to the expressway than you do Lisavolley41387 [2:48 AM]: whatever. hope your horny ass gets laid soon Bijan [2:49 AM]: i will just play with myself Bijan [2:49 AM]: you know my ass is always horny Bijan [2:49 AM]: so...... Lisavolley41387 [2:49 AM]: good for you. enjoy yourself Bijan [2:49 AM]: i better satisfy myself right? Bijan [2:49 AM]: hahahahaha Lisavolley41387 [2:50 AM]: yeah, since no one else will do it for you Bijan [2:50 AM]: nope Bijan [2:50 AM]: im a bum Bijan [2:50 AM]: im ugly Bijan [2:50 AM]: im a pig Lisavolley41387 [2:50 AM]: yep Bijan [2:50 AM]: so Bijan [2:50 AM]: of course not Bijan [2:51 AM]: if you say so.... Lisavolley41387 [2:52 AM]: yep Today I woke up around 7:35 cause my mom called my name and Christina goes "mom, she's OFF TODAY!" I knew she would forget. lol. So Christina comes up to my room cause my mom needed to borrow $10.00. Funny how she's the one with the job and I'm lending her money. Then I went back to bed. Jackie called at 8:40-ish cause we had to go to the library (downtown) to get books for English class. Yeah, they had nothing. lol. Then when I got home, I called Nick and he said mom said I couldn't get my ears pierced...stupid moron told her. So I called her at work and she said "we'll talk about it when I get home from work," but we didn't. Figures. I fell asleep around 6 and woke up at 6:30. I sleep a lot. lmao. I'm nocturnal. Then I did nothing the rest of the day. Oh, I IMed Allen (from a different SN) and told him I never said that, but he didn't know who I was, so I had to tell him and everything. lol. Mario just got online...haven't talked to him in a while. Oh, well. Beddy-Bye time. Nighty Night bumwhoplaysvball: hi, you dont know me...sort of. but sam lied to you...i never said i wanted a piece of that. all i said was you had nice hands lol Allen: whos is this? bumwhoplaysvball: lisa Allen: and i know you how? bumwhoplaysvball: you dont know me, but we have lunch together. im the one that was supposed to kick you Allen: oh Allen: i still dont really know Allen: you know who i am though? bumwhoplaysvball: yeah bumwhoplaysvball: im the short one that hangs out with deanna, the tall mexican Allen: i think i knoe Allen: j/w, how did you get my s/n bumwhoplaysvball: sam was at my house when she IMed you on my name bumwhoplaysvball: it wasnt this SN though Allen: oh ok # Monday, April 28, 2003 ( 4/28/2003 11:14:00 PM ) Lisa So I finally get kicked off of AOL for sending bulk e-mail, which I've been trying to do for like 3 months. So we call and my mom tells the lady that I want to get whitelisted. Of course, if you're not part of the "Zine World" you'll have nooo idea what I'm talking about. lol. So the lady says I can only send an e-mail to 15 people at a time. My zine has about 70 members (which is pathetic compared to the other zines, but I don't care). Even with very little members, it's still going to take me hours to send 2 e-mails to over 70 people, but only being able to send 15 e-mails at a time. So I was sending out my zine tonight (which I usually send out every Sunday) and the damn thing was taking forever! So we called again, and the guy (who said my name in EVERY FREAGIN SENTENCE!) said I'm not aloud to send graphics, pictures, or MP3s. Well, considered the 2nd page of my zine is MP3s and graphics, that's going to be a problem. He said if I do send them out, I can only send it to 25 (max.) people at a time. If it's just all text, I can send it up to 100 people. That's effed up because other senders are able to send to over 1,000 people at a time and I can't even send to 100!!!!! The lady (from the first call) said I had to be 18, too. Ummmm...No, actually, I don't. Then she didn't even put me on the damn white list! Stupid morons. So I e-mailed two other senders to see if this happened to them. Hopefully they'll reply and won't delete my e-mails so I can see if this happened to them. I think I'll just call back tomorrow. # Sunday, April 27, 2003 ( 4/27/2003 04:51:00 PM ) Lisa Let's see...I didn't get to buy my bass this weekend. I'm buying a kind of cheap one. lol. When I get a job and actually get good at it, I'll buy a better one. They play all the same, anyway. Pretty much. :) Nick and I shook hands on this, I'm getting my ears pierced this Wednesday because I don't have school and Nick gets out early because he has a test. He's going to pick up my report card, too. haha. Today Chris invited me to go bowling with him, Nick, and Melissa and I was going to go. I asked if Christina could come, too and Chris said yeah, but Christina didn't want to go so I didn't go either because then I'd be all alone. lmao. That's pretty much it. -Lisa # ( 4/27/2003 01:34:00 AM ) Lisa HaHa! I don't know where I got this but, it cracks me up! lmfao. Funny funny stuff. Enjoy! -- People who point at their wrist while asking for the time. I know where my watch is buddy, where the fuck is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the bathroom is?? -- People who are willing to get off their ass to search the entire room for the TV remote because they refuse to walk to the TV and change the channel manually. -- When people say "oh your just want to have your cake and eat it too." Fuck off! What good is a goddamn cake if you can't eat it? What, should I eat someone else's cake instead? -- When people say "Its always in the last place you look" Of course it is. Why the fuck would you keep looking after you found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they?? -- When people say, while watching a movie "did you see that?" No dick nose, I paid $9.00 to come to the theater and stare at the fuckin ceiling up there. What did you come here for? -- People who ask "can I ask you a question?" Didn't really give me much of a choice there, did ya buddy? -- When something is "new and improved," Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it -- When a cop pulls you over and then asks if you know how fast you were going? You should know asshole, you fucking pulled me over. -- When people say "Life is short" What the fuck?? Life is the longest damn thing anyone will ever fucking do!! What? Are they going to fucking do something thats longer? -- When people ask "can I BORROW a piece of paper?" Sure, but please don't return the favor! I'm sure i want you to return the fucking paper after you write all over it. -- When you are waiting for the bus and someone ask you "did the bus come yet?" If the bus came I would not be standing here asshole! # Saturday, April 26, 2003 ( 4/26/2003 12:08:00 AM ) Lisa  you are a romance novel what type of book are you? brought to you by Quizilla # ( 4/26/2003 12:05:00 AM ) Lisa  what kind of junkie are you? 
Your Stripper Name is Brandy!You're the type of girl who got started dancing in clubs... And realized that you were so hot that you should turn pro. You're more of a go-go dancer than a stripper - getting down on stage, but not on laps. Dancing and music are what you're all about, though the cash tips are always a plus! You tend to stick to topless clubs, but if the pay is right, you'll take it all off. While you'll never turn porn star, you enjoy being the hottest cage dancer in town. What's *Your* Stripper Name? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva # Friday, April 25, 2003 ( 4/25/2003 10:28:00 PM ) Lisa FRIDAY FIVE http://fridayfive.org 1. What was the last TV show you watched? John Doe...well, it was on mute because I was listening to the radio and reading, but it was on. lol. If that doesn't count, then the Simpsons at 6:00. 2. What was the last thing you complained about? Stupid guys. 3. Who was the last person you complimented and what did you say? Gabriella, nice picture, thanks. lol. 4. What was the last thing you threw away? Pasta from dinner...go figure, pasta! 5. What was the last website (besides this one) that you visited? Yano's....yanowhatimean.com # Thursday, April 24, 2003 ( 4/24/2003 09:27:00 PM ) Lisa Tuesday Sam and Jonathan came over for 3 hours. lol. That was about it. Nick forgot to pick me up from school...again. I was like 5 blocks from home when he pulled over. Stupid boy. So I was pissed all day. My cousins Frankie, JoAnn, and Gina were over. Wednesday I didn't have school and Gina came over again. Today I had school for like 2 hours. I set my alarm clock for 6:40 AM. NEVER EVER! wake me up before my alarm clock. Nick wakes me up at 6:25 AM and tells me he's taking me to school. I tell him I start at 7:30. He leaves for school at 7. So then my mom calls because she's at the hospital because something happened to my grandpa during the night. I called Vanessa, but she didn't pick up. It was to late to take the bus because they come every half hour and it was 7:00 by then. Nick already left for school because he has to pick up Ricardo, too. It's like a 40 minute walk, so that was a definite no because by the time I got to school, I'd have to turn around to go home again. So my mom called to see if I found a way to get to school and I said no. So I just stood home. It was only 15 minute classes anyway. I went back to bed after 8 and finally got up around 11:40 because the stupid phone kept ringing. Gina and JoAnn came over again and were here till after 4. I burned 2 CDs for me and one for Christina cause she's an idiot and doesn't know how. Hmmm...I was watching ER just now and I went to the bathroom and my mom changed the effin channel...Moron. # ( 4/24/2003 02:19:00 PM ) Lisa  Cocaine. You like to talk, you like to run, but most of all you like to have fun. Which drug should you be hooked on? [now with pictures] brought to you by Quizilla u r a DUMBASS R U a dumbass? brought to you by Quizilla You are Little Nicky (But not as hot) What Adam Sandler Movie are you? brought to you by Quizilla you rule...! Are you weird? brought to you by Quizilla  You're Marge. y did u marry Homer? Which Simpsons character r u? brought to you by Quizilla Scabies What kind of disease are you? brought to you by Quizilla You are not blonde at all..you may have your moments, but who doesn't? How Blonde are u? brought to you by Quizilla # Tuesday, April 22, 2003 ( 4/22/2003 07:10:00 PM ) Lisa  U R So Cute! Are You Cute? (for girls) brought to you by Quizilla # ( 4/22/2003 06:16:00 PM ) Lisa Saturday night, Vince, my mom, Nick, and Gabriella went out to eat (Old Country Buffet). Christina didn't want to go and I was going out later. At 8, Sam(antha) came over and me and her walked to 7-11 to meet up with Matt. Then we went to his house for a little bit because he had to pick up something. Then we went to his friends house to watch him and his friends skateboard. Me and Sam got a little board, so he dropped us off at the bowling alley where we met up with Carly, Humberto, Jonathan, and Wesly (I don't know him). I didn't bowl though cause I didn't feel like it. I had to be home by 12/12:30. I called Mario and he said he'd pick me up. He got there kind of fast. So me and him drove around and talked and he dropped me off in my alley (because he's still scared of my family). Sunday was 420, Jill's birthday, and Easter. My parents dragged me to church, which I haven't been to since 8th grade graduation (not counting weddings, baptisms, etc.). Then we came home, ate dinner, fell asleep, and went to my grandparents house. Monday was back to school. =( It was OK, I guess. It went by kind of fast. Jill wasn't there and Amina and Deanna didn't go to lunch so I was all alone. :*( After school I got food for Christina and Gabriella then fell asleep. Christina woke me up because Sam was on the phone. She stopped by and wanted to know if I'd go out to eat with her and Jonathan (who gave me a ride home from school early that day. lol.). I said I didn't want to go, but asked Vince anyway. We went to the Olive Garden. I didn't eat anything. I was tooo sweepy to eat. Vince said I had to be home at 7:45 PM. MORON! It was 7:15 PM when I asked him! Stupid man. I came home at 8:15. haha. Me, Sam, and Matt might go out tonight, but I doubt my parents will let me. They were having a spaze cause I went out for an hour yesterday. They were like "didn't you go out Saturday?" They make it seem like I'm never home or I go out every day. Effin losers... # Saturday, April 19, 2003 ( 4/19/2003 07:18:00 PM ) Lisa  You have a surprise kiss! Your partner is always pleasantly pleased to have you jump outta no where to dote them with a fun peck on the cheek or more passionate embrace. super markets and work places are your favorite places to attack your loved one with all your love =p What kind of kiss are you? brought to you by Quizilla 
 Funny Asian Man What's Your Personality Type? brought to you by Quizilla  find out how pop you are by taking the "how pop are you?" test! You don't realize it, but you are the biggest faker, just like Avril. You probably tell all your friends how punk you are even though you only wear clothes that are advertised on TV and only listen to the bands that your friends listen to. I also hate you with a passion. Listen to a good band here!  The casual girl Which girl stereotype are you? brought to you by Quizilla  You're the sad smile,the one that regrets nearly everything and is constantly wondering about what could have been.You're not happy with your situation and usually blame yourself because of the bad things that have happened.Cheer up. What Kind of Smile are You? brought to you by Quizilla # ( 4/19/2003 06:42:00 PM ) Lisa My mom read my online diary (I think) and she wants to send me to a pyscologist now. Not that it makes a difference because I probably won't tell him/her anything anyway. Anywho...we went to the mall today cause we have to go to my aunt and uncle's (surprise) anniversary party. So I bought a pair of black pants, a red tank top and a red shirt to go over that. I bought my mom a book and a magazine and Christina a book and a pair of glasses...and people say I'm not nice. For myself I bought a Good Charlotte shirt, glasses, a spikey bracelet, a magazine, and 6 books. :) Vince is being an ass already and we haven't been home 10 minutes yet. I'm going out with Sam to meet some guy with her and I might go out with Mario later tonight, but I don't know. Tomorrow's Jill's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JILL!!!!!!!!!!!! Vince, my mom, Nick and Gabriella are going out to eat. Christina doesn't want to go with (I don't know why). I'm not going because I'm going out with Sam. Nick's only going because Vince was yelling that no one was going with them. OMG! Big effin deal. grrr!!! Welp, that's all that happened so far. I like my spikey bracelet. :D I saw 3 people I know at the mall...what stalkers they are. lol. I still have to do my homework. Might as well do it now I guess, right? Later, Lisa # Friday, April 18, 2003 ( 4/18/2003 10:15:00 PM ) Lisa  What month should you have been born in? this quiz was made by Erin  Young and naive. You may let people take advantage of you. Don't be such a conformist. Be you! ----- You could have also been: ...Baby One More Time | Sometimes | Crazy | Stronger | Lucky Oops!...I Did It Again | I'm a Slave 4 U | Not a Girl, Not Yet a Woman Which Britney Spears Video Character Are You? brought to you by Quizilla  you're not a hoe... Am i a hoe?(girls) brought to you by Quizilla  Your prom date is Joaquin Phoenix! Yum! You're lucky. Your boy is quiet and laid-back, some people take that as sullen. He's sweet as pie to you and that's why you love him. He's not comfortable unless he's chilling with you so you're pretty much together always. Your friends are his friends and his friends are your friends, it's nice, it's casual. Who's Your Celebrity Prom Date? brought to you by Quizilla  Scrabble What is your inner board game? brought to you by Quizilla  You aren't fat - you're big-boned! Why are you taking this quiz, anyway? You want to be a true Fat Girl because we're so cool, right? Well, not everyone can be a true Fat Girl - you'll have to settle with being happy just being yourself. Take the How Much Of A Fat Girl Are You? Quiz!  Anti-Dress-Up You're not going to Prom because... well, what's the point, really? You go, get all dolled up for one night, and then... what? You go put the dress away in your closet for the next thirty years so you can be nostalgic about one night of dancing and getting drunk? What's the point? Gawd. Why are you NOT going to Prom? brought to you by Quizilla  Black: PEOPLE SUCK THE WORLD SUCKS EVERYBODY SHOULD BE KILLED AND BLEED TO DEATH TILL THE COLD EARTH SOAKS IN BLOOD. Well, you're angry at the world. For reasons who knows, but you definately hate life. What color do you see the world in? brought to you by Quizilla WEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! # ( 4/18/2003 07:35:00 PM ) Lisa Bijan IMed me this morning (like at 1. lol.) Here's some clips from our conversation. Jill was messing with him at the time. Bijan: some girl is writing to me talking about incest Bijan: and how she wants to fuck and whatnot Bijan: hahahaha Me: k Bijan: it is funny as hell Bijan: whack job Bijan: i have no idea who she is though Bijan: and i dont go into chat rooms or anything Bijan: so, how does she know me???? Bijan: hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm Me: i dont know Bijan: or he for that matter, yukkkkky Bijan: :/ Me: haha thatd be great Bijan: u'd like that wouldn't you? Bijan: you freak Me: sure id like a guy. im sure you'd like one too Bijan: a guy? Bijan: why would i like that? Me: i dont knwo, cause i said so Me: *know...cant type tonight Bijan: why is that Bijan: get fucked really good earlier?? Bijan: hehehehehehehe Me: yeah maybe Bijan: grin......... Bijan: maybe? Bijan: you'd know if you did Bijan: hehehe Bijan: i saw your message earlier in italian Bijan: and the only word i could make out was fuck Me: it said fuck off asshole im busy Bijan: so, i thought you were saying you were gettting some in italiano Bijan: hehehehehe Me: k Bijan: i dont who the hell this is Bijan: but, i am having fun with them Bijan: it's funny Bijan: i think they're trying to piss me off Bijan: so, i like to mess with them Bijan: i dont think it's a guy though Bijan: i think it's a girl acting like a guy Me: k Bijan: just by the way they write Bijan: grin.... Me: maybe its a gay guy Me: maybe Bijan: who knows Bijan: it's cool Bijan: i dont have anything against gay people Me: me neither Bijan: just not thing Bijan: my* Me: did you ever hear the song "suck my dick" by eminem? its a good song, you should download it Bijan: is it a sexual song? Me: no, he's saying if you dont like my shit then suck my dick Bijan: coolio Bijan: he/she know said it's a girl Bijan: hehe Me: k Bijan: is that you??????????????? Bijan: booger? Bijan: :) Bijan: you're funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Bijan: hello????? Me: no its on, i have better things to do with my time...but then again, it could be me, i do have lots of AIM names, so you dont really know, now do you? Me: *no its not Bijan: grin.......... Bijan: it is you Bijan: you're a booger Bijan: im gonna kick your butt Me: i think its not me Me: no you wont Bijan: why not? Me: cause you wont Bijan: you dont think so?? Me: nope Bijan: why is that? Me: cause i just dont think so Bijan: booger Bijan: you're funny Bijan: you had me going Me: its not me Bijan: i thought it was someone else to be honest Bijan: grin................ Bijan: who is it then? Bijan: it's one of your friends Me: ask Bijan: if it aint you Me: k Bijan: grin......... Bijan: why arent you talking? Me: why are you? Bijan: you dont wanna talk to me? Me: you said you dont want to talk to me Got into a little personal stuff there. Don't wanna post that. haha. =) Me: you never answered my question Bijan: which was? Me: why did you im me tonight? Bijan: id rather be in you Bijan: hehe Bijan: tonite Bijan: hahahahahaha Me: im serious, why did you IM me? Bijan: cant i? Bijan: are you busy? Bijan: i wanted to talk to you Me: not really, but i was just wondering cause of what you said yesterday Me: im never busy Bijan: well i was mad Bijan: you said mean things too Me: ur's were meanier Bijan: urs were too Me: not really Bijan: yeah huh Bijan: what did i say that was soooooooo mean? Me: i dont know Bijan: obviously not that bad then Bijan: hint hint Me: just the "i play games thing" that made me mad and you comparing me to someone else Bijan: k Me: i have 5 fingers on each hand. do you? Bijan: yeah Bijan: duh Me: would u still talk to me if i was missing fingers or toes or teeth or an eye or an ear or i didnt have a nose or a tongue? eww thats kinda creepy haha Bijan: lol Bijan: grin............... Me: would you? Bijan: no Bijan: would you?? Me: hell no id be scared of you Bijan: grin...... Alrighty and this is from earlier today. Me [3:36 PM]: so when im i gonna see this 3rd nipple of yours? Bijan [3:37 PM]: hey Me [3:37 PM]: howdy Bijan [3:37 PM]: you dont want to see it Me [3:37 PM]: yeah yeah Bijan [3:37 PM]: no no Bijan [3:37 PM]: i freaked you out yesterday Me [3:37 PM]: no you didnt i was just playin Bijan [3:37 PM]: sure Bijan [3:38 PM]: it's cool Bijan [3:38 PM]: i can take it Me [3:38 PM]: you didnt, seriously Bijan [3:38 PM]: im a freak Me [3:38 PM]: awwww no youre not poopie Me [3:40 PM]: you know you wanna show me Bijan [3:41 PM]: i dont Me [3:42 PM]: awww why not? Bijan [3:42 PM]: cuz, you got freaked out yesterday Bijan [3:42 PM]: i mean, just to tell you Me [3:42 PM]: no i didnt Bijan [3:42 PM]: it's not like a normal nipple Bijan [3:43 PM]: like i have on my chest Bijan [3:43 PM]: but, it's a third nipple Bijan [3:43 PM]: and lots of people have them too by the way Bijan [3:43 PM]: they just think they're birth marks though Bijan [3:43 PM]: or beauty marks i should say Bijan [3:43 PM]: birth marks look like stains Bijan [3:43 PM]: and everyone has at least one birth mark Me [3:43 PM]: ahh i was just playing. im not easily freaked out, except from scary movies...those scare me Me [3:46 PM]: poo? Bijan [3:46 PM]: yes Me [3:46 PM]: nothin Bijan [3:47 PM]: grin... Me [3:47 PM]: :-D Bijan [3:47 PM]: where's sam? Bijan [3:47 PM]: i mean amanda Bijan [3:48 PM]: hehehehehehehe Lisavolley41387 [3:48 PM]: i dont know, shes online but her away message is up Bijan [3:48 PM]: ic ic Bijan [3:48 PM]: mad at eachother? Bijan [3:48 PM]: grin....... Bijan [3:48 PM]: vallerie? Lisavolley41387 [3:48 PM]: uhhhh i killed her? Bijan [3:49 PM]: grin........ Lisavolley41387 [3:49 PM]: you think im cool Bijan [3:49 PM]: heheheh Bijan [3:49 PM]: youre a murderer Lisavolley41387 [3:49 PM]: awwwww Lisavolley41387 [3:49 PM]: yes yes i am...but shhhh no one's supposed to know that Bijan [3:50 PM]: bad bad bad Lisavolley41387 [3:51 PM]: vinney yelled at me for being on the computer this morning. he almost threw something at me :'( Bijan [3:51 PM]: got caught huh Lisavolley41387 [3:52 PM]: yeah i just said i was downloading music and hes making me clean the whole house today...which i didnt do Bijan [3:52 PM]: uh oh Bijan [3:52 PM]: bad bad girl Bijan [3:52 PM]: better do it Lisavolley41387 [3:52 PM]: no im not. im a good girl o:) Bijan [3:52 PM]: right right Bijan [3:52 PM]: you murderer Lisavolley41387 [3:52 PM]: hey now, is that sarcasm i detect? Bijan [3:52 PM]: maybe jus a lil Bijan [3:52 PM]: hehehehehehehe Bijan [3:53 PM]: and not a jil Bijan [3:53 PM]: :) Lisavolley41387 [3:53 PM]: lol dork Bijan [3:53 PM]: ahhhhh that was funny as hell Bijan [3:53 PM]: grin.... Bijan [3:53 PM]: i am proud of my skills Bijan [3:53 PM]: grin.... Bijan [3:53 PM]: very very Lisavolley41387 [3:53 PM]: you should be...all the power to ya Bijan [3:53 PM]: grin....... Lisavolley41387 [3:54 PM]: meatloaf sandwich...sloppy joe, sloppy joe, sloppy joe, sloppy sloppy joe :-D isnt adam sandler hot? hehehe Bijan [3:56 PM]: no Bijan [3:57 PM]: my cousin tells me i look like him Bijan [3:57 PM]: i dont see it though Lisavolley41387 [3:57 PM]: hmmm i dont know, ill get a picture of you 2 and compare...and uh, yeah...he is. i have a cousin too lol Bijan [3:59 PM]: no no Lisavolley41387 [3:59 PM]: yeah yeah Bijan [4:00 PM]: nope Lisavolley41387 [4:00 PM]: yeeeeaaaahhh Bijan [4:00 PM]: nuh uh Lisavolley41387 [4:01 PM]: yeeeaaahh!!!! :'( Bijan [4:01 PM]: no Bijan [4:01 PM]: :) Lisavolley41387 [4:01 PM]: yep Bijan [4:01 PM]: nope Lisavolley41387 [4:01 PM]: yes Bijan [4:02 PM]: no Lisavolley41387 [4:02 PM]: yeppers Bijan [4:03 PM]: peppers Lisavolley41387 [4:03 PM]: peppers are yummy Bijan [4:04 PM]: peppers are crummy Bijan [4:04 PM]: cheese is yummy Lisavolley41387 [4:04 PM]: cheese is ca-ca! Bijan [4:04 PM]: you're a dummy Lisavolley41387 [4:04 PM]: awww sadness :'( you are Bijan [4:04 PM]: and i am funny Lisavolley41387 [4:04 PM]: no youre not. ure scummy Bijan [4:05 PM]: ok Lisavolley41387 [4:05 PM]: no, now youre supposed to call me a name poo...play right! Bijan [4:06 PM]: i m a freak Lisavolley41387 [4:07 PM]: no no poo Bijan [4:08 PM]: i gotta go and do that!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 Bijan [4:08 PM]: lol Lisavolley41387 [4:08 PM]: ewww lol Bijan [4:08 PM]: what Bijan [4:08 PM]: like you dont Bijan [4:08 PM]: grin Bijan [4:08 PM]: freak Lisavolley41387 [4:09 PM]: lol yeah i am a freak AND PROUD! Bijan [4:09 PM]: i bet you are Lisavolley41387 [4:09 PM]: i am Bijan [4:09 PM]: show me just how freaky Bijan [4:09 PM]: lol Bijan [4:10 PM]: wheres your freak squad?? Bijan [4:10 PM]: :) Lisavolley41387 [4:10 PM]: i killed them all!!!! :-) Bijan [4:11 PM]: whatever Bijan [4:11 PM]: right Lisavolley41387 [4:11 PM]: stop doing that Bijan [4:11 PM]: stop what? Lisavolley41387 [4:11 PM]: the "its alright, whatever..." stuff Bijan [4:11 PM]: whatver Bijan [4:11 PM]: so whatever Lisavolley41387 [4:12 PM]: poo, youre a poopie head Bijan [4:12 PM]: whatver shithead Bijan [4:12 PM]: grin....... Lisavolley41387 [4:12 PM]: awwww :'( Bijan [4:12 PM]: you're not a dummy Bijan [4:12 PM]: some people are assholes Bijan [4:13 PM]: they cant have the courtesy to be honest Bijan [4:13 PM]: fuck them Bijan [4:13 PM]: i hope they rot and die Lisavolley41387 [4:13 PM]: watch your pottie mouth mister! Bijan [4:13 PM]: i will not Bijan [4:13 PM]: u watch it Bijan [4:13 PM]: as it comes out Bijan [4:13 PM]: i guess Lisavolley41387 [4:13 PM]: ewwwww...wait, as what comes out? huh? me so confused Bijan [4:14 PM]: thats the response i get most of the time Lisavolley41387 [4:14 PM]: haha thats cute "i will not" hehehe Bijan [4:14 PM]: what its not Lisavolley41387 [4:15 PM]: uve got pinchable cheeks, come on now Bijan [4:15 PM]: what i do Bijan [4:15 PM]: my cheeks are boney Lisavolley41387 [4:15 PM]: eh i can still pinch them :-D Lisavolley41387 [4:16 PM]: ah uh vinneys home...bye byes # Thursday, April 17, 2003 ( 4/17/2003 06:03:00 PM ) Lisa Jack Johnson Which band are you? brought to you by Quizilla you have for urself a pure thug...damn they are the best! What kind of Boy friend do you need? brought to you by Quizilla  SEX APPEAL (results contain pictures) What kind of ANIME BOOBS do you have? brought to you by Quizilla  You Have the Power to Turn Things to Stone! What's Your Magic Power? brought to you by Quizilla you are black what color fits you best? brought to you by Quizilla you are normal YAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How Gay are you. Really????? brought to you by Quizilla # ( 4/17/2003 02:01:00 PM ) Lisa =) Jill, I love you! (in the non-sexual fashion, of course). I know that you're here for me, but I don't like going to people. I'm not an open person and even when I write in my diaries, I keep it to a minimium. But thank you for your support. If I never need anything, I'll come to you. =) And yeah Fuck Bijan! (not literally of course.) =0Þ Did you actually sit there and read all that jibberish, Jiwwian? lol. It was kinda long. =/ Hope you don't mind that I stole this from your diary. lol. http://jillzbeanz.diaryland.com "Lisa- Sometimes I get really worried about her. Like I read her online diaries and I get scared that she might do something to herself. Like over the past year, me and her have came really close to eachother. I mean reading the stuff in her online diaries, she talks about things like people don't care about her, or something along those lines. I care about her soOo much(non-sexually, hello! I got a boyfriend) and I'm just really worried about her. And this guy, well I should more say boy, Bijan, Bejing, BJ, blowjob, whatever his fucking name is, he really needs to grow up. He's the one fucking with Lisa'a mind. She doesn't have to put up with his shit! She has a guy named Victor that wants to go out with her. I think she should give him a chance. Bijan, I think if he liked her more them a friend, he would've asked her out already. I don't mean that in a bad way, it's just that it's like he plays mind games. Another thing is that I really don't like how Lisa thinks about herself. She thinks so negatively, I mean, I do too, but I mean I guess it natural. She says shes not skinny. Either am I. I mean I'm not fat, probably about average and she average. If she was fat, I would've told her that and I wouldn't be her friend. I know thats mean, but thats how I am. Shes very pretty too. She has guys attracted to her. Again, if she was ugly, I wouldn't told her that. Thats just how I am. And of course shes smart! She's in AP classes! Look at me! It's like I'm in special ED! (Well not really) But I know Lisa is gonna ingore this, and just what I'm about to say, Lisa, if you ever need me, I'm here for you. You have my phone number, just give me a call. :)" # Wednesday, April 16, 2003 ( 4/16/2003 04:18:00 PM ) Lisa This is from my zine. I copied and pasted it cause I'm to lazy and mad to take out the headings and all that crap. -Lisa- My fortune (from a zine) for today: Aries Something you've taken for granted is taken from you, Ram, and you'll have trouble getting it back. Perseverance is in order. Only In Time ! * =============================== \ Editor Name: Lisa / / Issue: #19 \ \ I Heart You Forever! / =============================== Welcome !* ============================= Welcome to issue 19. I feel like writing, so I thought I'd just make another issue. Sorry if I'm bothering you with all these issues. Please don't unsubscribe because of that, I just need to write...I need to get my feelings out... <3 <3 Lisa <3 <3 Diary!* ======================== I don't know why Bijan does this to me. I don't know why I continue to want to talk to him after he makes me feel like crap. I don't know why I don't stick up for myself more. Yeah, I argue back, but my defense isn't what it used to be. I used to be able to think of comebacks in a second. I used to be able to think of reasons to hate someone in a heartbeat. I used to be able to lie on the spot without hestitation, now I have to plan out my excuses ahead of time. I used to not care what people think. Now it bothers me when I know someone thinks I'm dirt. When someone treats me like dirt. Yet, I continue to put up with them. Why? Why do I feel the need to hurt myself? Not in the nice phyisical way like I used to. I've moved on from that. I think because I stopped cutting recently, I feel the need to hurt myself, or purposely have someone hurt me, emotionally because pain is all I have in my life. Pain is the only comfort to me. It seems if I don't have pain in my life, then what's the point of going on? What's the point of waking up in the morning? I don't know why I find comfort in pain. I don't know why I feel the need to hurt myself one way or another. I don't know why I'm attracted to blood, the coolness of the dark red liquid dripping down from my wrists. The burning sensation it leaves. The scars that are left behind. The feeling of my skin being broken, being harmed. Maybe that's why I want to become a pathologist. So I can see blood, so I can cut into skin. I don't know why it bothers me that Bijan thinks I'm nothing, that he thinks I'm dirt. It's never bothered me before. Everyone thinks that of me, I know that. I enjoy people's threats. I push them to it. I tell them to go ahead and do it to me, but they never do. Promises. Promises. I have nothing to live for. I live for pain. I live so people can bring me down, so people can hurt me...It's what I like. I like the darkness in me. The blackness of my heart. Not letting one come close to me, not telling one anything of importance. I never share my feelings. I bottle them up inside me until I break down and that's when you can find in me in the corner of my room crying, holding a pen and writing furiously. Writing of harmful words, things I wish would happen to me, different ways of killing myself, different ways to harm me or someone else. Ways to heal the pain, the pain that I'm so attracted to. Maybe I do play mind games with others. Maybe I do lead them on, thinking that something could happen, but then turn I it all around. Break their hopes. Make them hate me. I don't want anyone to love me. I don't want anyone to love. I don't want anyone to listen to me or care about how I feel. I don't need friends. Honestly, I don't know why people put up with me. I don't tell them anything. I don't tell them I love them and if I do I'm never in the serious mood that I should be. I don't tell people how I feel. I don't care to know what others are feeling or what they think of me. I keep my opinions to myself. I don't share. I never share. Never have either. I don't like when people read my poems or my online diaries, that way I think they don't know what I'm going through. That way I can think that they think of me as the same happy-go-lucky person I make myself out to be. But maybe I started my online diaries for a reason. Maybe I made websites for my poems so people can read them. So people can know how I really am, know how I really feel. That way they can think poorly of me, that way they can hate me because of what they now know. I can never take compliments. Insult me all you want, there's a 98% chance I'd agree with you. I can take insults, but I can't take compliments. I can't take the attention it gives. I don't need attention, I don't want it, I hate it. I don't believe people when they compliment me anyway. I'm a horrible writer, I'm not skinny, I'm not cute, I'm not smart. I'm everything bad in life. I'm nothing good. I talk back, I yell at my parents. I hurt myself, I hurt others for the pure pleasure of knowing that I can. Don't compliment me. Just don't. Don't tell me you're sorry, or that you're there to talk if I ever wanted to. I don't talk to anyone. I'll tell people things, but I keep it to a minimum, I don't tell them how I feel. I don't share my feelings, so don't bother asking me how I feel about something. Don't bother asking me my opinions cause I probably won't share them. Don't talk to me unless you have problems. I love listening to other people's problems. Some people I know think they have it bad...Try having my mind, try living my life, thinking my thoughts, feeling my feelings. They couldn't. They couldn't handle it. Which is good, no one should have to put up with what I'm feeling. No one should have to go through that and I hope no one ever does. Writing is the only way for me to escape reality, the only way I can pretend my life is better, that I actually have something to listen to, that people love me. But then again, I already said I don't want to be love. There's no point to love. What does it bring you? It can't bring you happiness. You can't always be happy. Maybe that's why people are distant from me, people are unsure of when I'm going to crack, when I'm going to just snap off. No one wants to get close to me...but that's also good. There's no escape from reality. No matter how much I can try, I'll always, always end up in the same place. It's not worth pretending I can change my world. I need and want to cut myself so badly. I don't need help though. Don't think I do. I'm not a weak person. Getting help for yourself is a sign of weakness, a sign that you can't control yourself. I haven't cut in 46 days. Not bad. Some of you might have guessed why I feel like this. The people who actually read my zine. People who don't read it and the new subscribers probably have no idea what I'm talking about. I don't feel like explaining it. I don't see the need to. I just wanted to get my feelings about. Tell everyone how much I hate certain people. I don't know why it bothers me that Bijan decided (yet again) that he doesn't want to talk to me...Victor asked me out. Here's the conversation Bijan and I had on Yahoo IM earlier today. I didn't even raise my temper. I kept myself calm...besides the throwing of the few items. I just wanted to call at him and yell like crazy even though I could hardly talk. My voice is almost back to normal, though. I took my name out cause I don't want anyone to know my yahoo ID. I'm already getting a bunch of junk mail on this screenname, I don't need and definitely don't want more on my other screennames. Bijan: what is that?? Me: whats what? Bijan: you're sleepyhead Bijan: grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Bijan: no playin today Bijan: i guess Me: you could still come over, we have some time...you couldve called poopie. what time did u wake up? Bijan: it's already 12:45 Bijan: it's too late Bijan: ohh i didnt notice the time =) im usually up by 11, but then i went back to bed Bijan: yeah yeah yeah yeah Bijan: alright, well i will let you get back to sleep Bijan: ttyl Me: im not going back to bed Bijan: k Me: dorko Bijan: k Me: awww ure not fun today Bijan: nope Bijan: im mad Bijan: grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr Bijan: no fun Bijan: angry angry Me: ohhhh we could just go somewhere else cause i cant sneak out, i have to wake up at 6 to take a test to get into nursing school Me: *cant sneak out tonight Bijan: dont worry about it Bijan: you have fun tomorrow Bijan: it's too late Me: whats fun about getting up at 6 to take a 3 hour test? Bijan: i dunno Bijan: well, you take care lisa Bijan: enjoy yourself today Bijan: have fun tonite Bijan: and good luck tomorrow Me: dont be mad at me Bijan: im gonna take off Me: ottays Bijan: ill let you get back to whatever Bijan: you're up to Bijan: don't worry about my bday present Bijan: i dont need anything Me: ahhhh you couldve called me! Bijan: enjoy the rest of yoyr vacation Bijan: your* Bijan: with whomever Bijan: lol Bijan: i forgot his name, hahahahha Bijan: victor Bijan: there we go Bijan: lol Bijan: grin.... Me: alrighty suuuuure Bijan: k Bijan: well enjoy your day Me: you too poopie and dont be mad at me cause that makes me sad Bijan: i will c-ya around. Bijan: take care of yourself lisa Bijan: good luck on your test tomorrow, and enjoy the rest of your vacation. Bijan: whatever, you got going on. Bijan: bye bye Me: yeah thanks....argh u make me so mad! byes Bijan: k Bijan: joint the club Bijan: join* Me: how do i make you mad? Bijan: it's alright Bijan: doesn't matter Bijan: anymore.... Bijan: i just thought we were past the games, that's all. Bijan: i am over it though... Bijan: all better now. Me: fine. youre gonna be like that because you couldnt come over. its not my fault though, sorry i woke up late, you couldve called, i wouldve woken up Bijan: right Bijan: you wouldn't have woken up Bijan: im not arguing either.. Me: yes i would have Bijan: and whatever, i couldnt comeover Bijan: i couldn't Bijan: i just dont like being played Bijan: that's all Bijan: and blown off Bijan: but, whatever Bijan: like i said Bijan: i am not arguing Bijan: not worth it Bijan: you do what you want to Bijan: dont worry about me Bijan: im coolio Me: im didnt blow you off. and if you couldnt come over anyway, why are you getting mad? Me: *i Bijan: i didn't say i couldn't come Bijan: you didnt want me to Me: yes i did Bijan: i am not mad, like i said i am past that Bijan: k Bijan: if you say so Bijan: dont matter anymore Bijan: you did what you want to do. Me: ha my brothers on his way anyway, so that wouldve beem a problem...good luck with whatever...have fun in vegas if you move Me: *been Bijan: ok Bijan: c-ya Me: bye...dont think that of me Bijan: too late for that Bijan: have a nice life lisa Me: stop that! Bijan: just think i got hit by a car Me: no thats mean Bijan: k Bijan: well, i will let you get back to sleep or whatever you're up to Me: no dont because i dont want to think that of me. i hate when you do this Bijan: ehhhhh Bijan: it doesn't matter what i say Me: yes it does, it does to me anyway Bijan: k Bijan: well, enjoy the rest of your weekend Bijan: im gone Me: yeah bye Bijan: take care of yourself lisa Me: whaaaatever Bijan: too bad, it didn't work out Bijan: have a nice life. Bijan: i hope you make it as a nurse Bijan: c-ya Me: to bad what didnt work out? we didnt have anything Bijan: yeah, that's true Bijan: ok Bijan: so, you won't be missing anything Me: sort of Bijan: or out on anything i should say for that matter Bijan: so. Bijan: nah Bijan: you got your other studs to keep you occupied Bijan: i mean, i am sure it's not as easy to play them Me: i dont have any other guys Bijan: like it was me Bijan: but, hey Bijan: i am sure they have other values Bijan: grin.... Me: i dont play anyone! Bijan: k Bijan: just me Me: i didnt play you Bijan: and im not anyone Bijan: well, i am going. Bijan: get some rest Bijan: take care of yourself... Me: shut up, im not going to bed i said that already Bijan: well, whatever you got planned then Bijan: i'll let you get ready for that Me: why would u think i had anything planned? it was supposed to be you....whatever i dont wanna argue either cause then i'll take it out on someone else. just dont hate me, thats all i want since you dont want anything to do with me anymore Bijan: it doesn't matter what i think of you Bijan: you didn't think too much of me Bijan: so, it doesn't matter Bijan: but, i am going for the last time.... Bijan: so, take care of yourself Bijan: best of luck with everything Bijan: hope all goes well for you in whatever you choose Bijan: not to mention, your test tomorrow Bijan: ciao Bijan status is now "Busy" (4/16/2003 1:15 PM) Me: shut up! i dont think youre dirt like you think of me Bijan: k Bijan: if u say so Bijan: take care, joe... Me: ha whatever Bijan: exactly Bijan: you wont be missing out on anything Bijan: bye Me: you said bye like 11 times Bijan: that was the last time Bijan: im not gonna say anything more Bijan: so, Bijan: bye for the 12th time Me: i hate the number 12 Bijan: im ghost Me: why do you have to treat me like crap? Bijan: there's nothing left for me to say Bijan: and i am not arguing Me: answer the question then Bijan: you treated me the way you wanted to be treated. Bijan: so, whatever Bijan: i am not mad though Bijan: such as life Bijan: just like sam Bijan: i am used to getting dissed by girls Me: so me sneaking out at 3 in the morning and almost getting caught is treating you like dirt? Bijan: so, why should it be any different with you Bijan: whatever Bijan: blowing me off how many times? Bijan: 3 times?? Bijan: l Bijan: k Me: dont bring sam into this, she has nothing to do with this. she doesnt like you, who cares? Me: there are other people you can use just as easily Bijan: i dont care Bijan: im just saying that you're no different than her Bijan: i brought her up to use a coralations Bijan: of how i usually get dogged by girls Bijan: and sam is an ex Me: you dont know the first thing about either of us, so dont compare us with each other. dont compare us to anyone Me:yeah, sure. like i was supposed to know who sam is Bijan: and i have come to learn. Bijan: you're no different Bijan: BYE!!! Bijan: i will compare you to whoever i feel like comparing you to Bijan: and you two are friends Me: no because im not like anyone and you dont even know anything about me, so theres nothing for you to compare Bijan: so, the apple dont fall too far from the tree Bijan: k Bijan: well, like i said.... Bijan: it's too bad that we couldn't get along Bijan: but, hey im an ass Bijan: an ugly ass for that matter Bijan: so, you're better off in the long run Me: i was getting along with you...and ure cute so dont say that Bijan: right Bijan: you dont have to bs with me anymore Bijan: really, i know i am not attractive Bijan: and am very used to is Bijan: it* Me: im not. u are cute and i thought that the first time i saw u Bijan: probally going to be that way for the rest of my life Bijan: so, i am used to Bijan: it* Bijan: which is probally why i get treated the way i do Bijan: but, some people have luck Bijan: if it weren't for bad luck, i'd have none... Bijan: like, i said i have grown accustomed to it Bijan: the embarrasment called my life Bijan: but, i have said more than enough Bijan: bye for the 13th time Me: 14th Bijan: since you dont like 12's Me: just answer this simple question...why didnt you call this morning? and i dont, i hate the numbers 12 and 7 Poetry!* ======================== Only In Time written by me 4-9-03 Only in time will my wounds heal Will happiness be something I can feel Only in time will I be away from here When loniness be something I do not fear My thoughts will become real My secrets will no longer be concealed Me heart will no longer be black Love will be something I do not lack My words are short My thoughts hurt Only in time will my wounds heal Will happiness be something I can feel... Bye!* ============================= Hope you enjoyed issue 19. No more Bijan I guess. I still have some fun conversations with him that I'll put in future issues. Have a great week. # ( 4/16/2003 02:20:00 PM ) Lisa This is how I feel right now. I'll write about it later. I'm making a new issue for my zine. Lisa Creep by Radiohead When you were here before, couldn't look you in the eye. You're just like an angel, your skin makes me cry. You float like a feather, in a beautiful world I wish I was special, you're so fucking special. But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo. What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here. I don't care if it hurts, I want to have control. I want a perfect body, I want a perfect soul. I want you to notice, when I'm not around. You're so fucking special, I wish I was special. But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo. What the hell am I doing here?. I don't belong here She's running out the door, she's running, she run, run, run, run, run. Whatever makes you happy, whatever you want. You're so fucking special, I wish I was special, but I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo. What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here, I don't belong here. # Monday, April 14, 2003 ( 4/14/2003 08:05:00 PM ) Lisa xo---------})|({-----------------------ox i wanna be the qurl u point to n say * t h a t ' s h e r . * xo-------------------------})|({-------ox I KNOW WHAT I'M BUYING WITH MY MONEY!! hehehe. I'm gonna buy a few shirts and pairs of pants, CDs, and some more books...cause I don't have enough. lol. (sarcasm). I'm gonna put some of it in the bank, but only like $50.00. lmao. I'll also put some of it in my piggy bank. But what I really wanna get is a guitar and an amp. =) Nick said he has like $1,000.00 worth of credit at Sam-Ash, so maybe he'll use that for me. lol. He said he wants to buy my cousin Johnny a guitar for his birthday. Then I said "What about me!?" He's like, I'll buy you one for Christmas...shyeah right. lol. But Nicky's cool. I used to want to play the drums, but we don't have any room in the house. So, that's a no-go, you know? haha. Sorry, I had to do that. I can't decide if I should get a guitar or bass, though. Cause these are the people in my family that play the guitar: Nicky, Johnny, Frankie B., and Carmy. Frankie was gonna play the drums, he bought them and everything, but decided not to. He's been trying to sell them for like 3 years. lol. Any takers?? The only person that plays the bass is Frankie S. Then I play the flute and Cathy plays the piano...we're the cool ones! lol. hmmmm....I wanna be different from this family. Yes, I am, but different instrumentaly, too. lol. I think Joey S. plays the saxaMAphone, but I'm not sure. Hmmm...guitar or bass? guitar or bass? Jill, what do you think?? hehehe. After I get a job and save enough money I'm gonna buy a flip phone! Woot Woot! =0Þ I'm gonna have Nick help me pick it out cause he knows what to get and what not to get...Damn, I have such a cool brother. roflmfao. xo---------})|({-----------------------ox i wanna be the qurl u point to n say * t h a t ' s h e r . * xo-------------------------})|({-------ox # ( 4/14/2003 03:05:00 PM ) Lisa OK. Here's how my birthday went...I got up around 11. Went downstairs and Nick was the first one to wish me a happy birthday (awww). =) Then my momma did...hmmm I don't think Vince did. Eh well! Then I cleaned a little. Then my momma, Gabriella and Vince went to church. Christina was at a volleyball tournament. So I went online to check my mail. Then Nick left because he was going to a Wolves game with his friend Amanda and her friend Shane. So then I made my bed and cleaned my room a little bit. Then I took a shower. Can't remember what else happened...The party started at 5. Of course people from my mom's side of the family have to come early. lol. So my Zia RoRo and Uncle Mark get there and she has a gold fish in a little bowl. She writes on a piece of paper something like..."I'm looking for a new home. My parents decided to go for the real thing." Then she asked me and Christina if we knew what that meant and I said "you're buying a new house?" She said no. So then I said "you're having a baby?" And she goes "YEAH!" Go me! I was the first to know! haha. Vince was the second one to guess it! =/ I was like, well if he got it, everyone else should, too. lol. Apparently, my aunt always said instead of having kids, they're gonna get fish. But I've never heard them say that, so whatever. GO ME still! The party kinda sucked. My family always talks extremely loud and half of them don't get along. I snuck a wine cooler though since no one would let me have one. =) We still have like 7 left. Maybe I'll sneak one of Wednesday. haha. Cathy got a little mad...Well, not really...because it was my birthday, but I wasn't getting any attention. She's like, "I knew you weren't going to." Yeah, our family is bogus like that. Why would you tell everyone your pregnant on someone else's "day" right!!!? grrr!!! She's 8.5 weeks, too! She should've told us a while ago. Nick called me from the hockey game like 3 times. lol. awwww. hehe. He's friend Amanda wished me a happy birthday too, she even bought me a card. =) I don't even know the chick either! Isn't that sweet!? So Nick's like, ok go outside and wait out front. Amanda's buying you a card. I was out there for like 20 minutes cause we were playing volleyball, but then I had to cut the cake, so I had to go in. I saw 3 people walk through the gangway so I ran up the stairs and pressed myself against the screen door. I do that a lot. haha. I did that when my cousin John came over yesterday, he gave me this weird look. haha. So then Shane (Amanda's friend) looked at me and nodded at me and Nick turns and goes "yeah, that's her." =D lol. So then I went outside and Nick introduced me. Amanda gave me a hug then the card and Shane gave me a handshake and like nodded his head, but it looked like he was bowing. hehe. He's shorter than me. =) I think. I was standing on the steps, but I think he's shorter. Anywho...then they left cause Nick had to drop them off and Amanda gave me another hug. I was thinking "Whoa lady, I just met you!" lol. jk. Shane was smoking! tisk tisk. They read my shirt, too...I gotta stop wearing shirts with writing on it. haha. So...this is what I got... 1. $25.00 gift card to Old Navy and card from my Auntie Diana, Uncle Louie, cousins Drew, and Carmelo. I HATE Old Navy!! grrrrrr!!!!!!!!! This time they gave us the reciept to show that they activated (sp?) it. haha. 2. Card from Amanda with a little note on the side. lol. She said if she would've known it was my birthday, she would've gotten an extra hockey ticket for me. Then she wanted to take me out for dinner, but because the party started at 5, she couldn't. That is sooo sweet! awwww. 3. Silver bracelet and a card from my Uncle John, Aunt Carol, cousins Carmy, Frankie, JoAnn, and Gina. 4.Homemade card from Gabriella. lol. awww!! =0Þ 5. Silver ring, necklace and bracelet and a homemade (computer) card from my Unlce Greg, Aunt Lina, and cousins Joey, Johnny, and Frankie. 6.$50.00 check and a card from my godparents and cousins Steve, Joey, Anthony, and Christina. 7.$35.00 and a card from my cousins Joe and Martha. 8.$50.00 and a card from my pregnant Zia (Aunt) RoRo and Uncle Mark. 9.$30.00 and a homemade (computer) card from my Zio Felice (Uncle Phil) and Zia Lia. 10.$40.00 and a homemade (computer) card from my Zio Pino (Uncle Joe), Zia Josie, and cousins Nicky, Joey and Phily. 11.$30.00 and a card from my Uncle Bill (who threatened me a few times yesterday) Auntie Rosie, and cousins Carmelo and Antonina. 12.$50.00 and a card from my little Nonna 13.$50.00 and a card from my Uncle Bill, Aunt Anna, and cousins Carmy, Ro, Johnny, Cathy, and Laura. 14.musical glass doll that says "16" on it, card, and $100.00 from my Nonna and Nonna. 15.$50.00 and a card from my Uncle Joe, Aunt Tonya, and cousin Olivia. 16."Happy Birthday" over the phone from Victor, Larry, and my godmother. 17."Happy Birthday" over the internet from Jill, Jackie, Sandy, Bijan, Carmy, Kelli, and Greg. lol. 18. 1 greeting-card from Jackie. hehe. Yes, I know I'm a loser. AND PROUD! 19. Best gift EVER! Clear glue aka "fun glue" from Christina. I LOVE THAT GLUE!! lol. 20.Industrial piercings from Nick. I haven't actually gotten that yet, we're going Saturday. He's like "and you better not get yelled at cause it's my birthday gift to you." =) hehe GO NICKY! GO GO GO NICKY! Total amount of money: $485.00. Oh! Sooo close too 500! grrr! Well, I have like $27.00 of my own money. So there ya go! haha. =) # ( 4/14/2003 12:36:00 AM ) Lisa So my birthday was alright. I got about $500.00 and a music box, 2 bracelets, a ring, and a necklace (all silver. yeah!) I'm still sooo sick, though and every time I laughed I had to cough. =( Awww! Victor called me to wish me a happy birthday! =D He's like "are you sick?" I'm like yeah. He's like "yeah, I can tell." Poo. =( That's all really. Oh, and my Aunt RoRo's pregnant...I was the first to guess. hehe. GO ME! lol. =) # Sunday, April 13, 2003 ( 4/13/2003 12:01:00 PM ) Lisa HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! =) 2 more years and I'll be out of this place. Whoo-hoooo!!!! # Friday, April 11, 2003 ( 4/11/2003 01:44:00 PM ) Lisa H So With A Touch Of My Hair H And A Twist Of My Hips This H This LiL Angel Is Gone With a Kiss H M U A H Must...Stop...Sneaking...Out...Must...Stop...Sneaking...Out...Must...Stop...Sneaking....Out....Must....Stop... Weeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm getting my industrial piercings this weekend! WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =D At "World Class" it costs $80.00 and at "Jade Dragon Tattoo" it costs $40.00. So Nick's gonna bring me to Jade Dragon, that way I can get both of my ears done for the price of one. hehe. I'm gonna help pay for it, though cause that's $80.00 freakin dollars! Good side about waiting, I won't have them done for my birthday party (which is totally gonna suck) and my uncles won't be able to rip them out of my ear or yell at me for 40 minutes. See, sometimes waiting's a good thing. Plus, I'll have extra money then cause I only have like $26.00 right now, probably less. lol. I snuck out again last night (obviously). lol. It was me and Bijan and we went to pick up Sam cause she wanted to meet him, but she couldn't sneak out cause she couldn't close her door cause it made too much noise. lol. So it was just me and Bijan and we just drove around and hung out in his car. haha. I snuck out at 2:15 AM and snuck back in around 4:50 AM. I came in, shut my door and went into my room...Then my mom asks if that was me. =/ dun dun duuunnnnnn...So I said yeah and she asked why I went outside. I said Tiggie (cat) kept scratching at the door and I went to look at who/what it was and there was a car with it's lights on, that's it. Then I went to the bathroom and she asked what was wrong and I said nothing, my stomach hurt. It didn't, but my head really did. lol. I'm such a good liar when it comes to my parents. =D So then she asked me again why I went outside and she said there wasn't a car and I said yeah, there was. lol. Then she goes "for real? Or did Victor sneak over here?" Yeah. I would wait till 4 in the morning for someone to take 2 buses to get to my house, sit on the front porch where we're liable to get caught, do nothing but talk, then send him home less than an hour later. lol. Must...Stop...Sneaking...Out...Must...Stop...Sneaking...Out...Must...Stop...Sneaking....Out....Must....Stop... H So With A Touch Of My Hair H And A Twist Of My Hips This H This LiL Angel Is Gone With a Kiss H M U A H # Wednesday, April 09, 2003 ( 4/09/2003 08:21:00 PM ) Lisa [[ -- i never thought i'd fall ten feet under.. *i always thought someone would remember to look for me, before i reached the end. -- ]] It's stupid how my parents wonder why I'm always in a bad mood when I'm around them or when I'm at home. Everything's fine at school. I got a 10 minute nap last period because I didn't want to fall asleep. So I get ready to go home, I look out the window, neither of our cars are there. 10 minutes pass, I decide to go to the counslor's office to call home. No answer. I called like 10 times. I waited for 40 minutes because it was too cold to walk home and I only had a sweater on and I didn't have any money for the bus. I called my brother, but he just left school (UIC) and wouldn't be able to pick me up. I knew he couldn't, I wanted to know if he had the number to my mom's pager or my aunt's house. The only person who has my mom's pager number is my dad. So 10th period gets out and I get a ride home from some freshman that I don't know (I went with Mandi and Vanessa). So I get dropped off at Vanessa's house and walk the 2.5 blocks home. No one's there. 10 minutes later, Nick calls to see if I got home and to say he was halfway home and wanted me to do something for him, but I was too pissed so I told him no. I called Baskin Robbins cause my aunt owns it and my mom usually takes the kids there if she has the day off, but she wasn't there. 4:20 comes and Vince gets home. He asks where my mom is and I said I don't know. He asked if I paged her and I told him I don't know the number (he didn't even give me it after I said that, either! grrr!!!). So he paged her. 4:35 Christina calls back and Vince asks where they were and told her to remind my mom that I had an orthodontist appointment. Yep, she forgot...again. The appointment's at 4:45, we get there at 5. Lucky for us, no one was there, so they weren't behind or busy or anything, so they took us. Then we went to order my cake. I don't care what kind of cake I have! What color icing do you want? I don't care. What about your favorite color? Ummm...my favorite color's black. She wouldn't let me have black tablecloths, you think she'd let me have a black cake? Come on now. Am I right? Yeah, I am. So then we went home, Christina asked what color my braces were now (cause I change them every time I go there) and I didn't answer her. So Vince and my mom start yelling at me. Wow, big effin deal. When don't I get yelled at? Psh. So not only do I get to set up the table, I get to clean it, too!! Yeah! ::cough:: sarcasm ::cough:: My mom wants me to wash the dishes now, but I said I can't cause I have to do my stupid art extra credit report. Luckily I finished that. Now all I have left to do is: draw one of Van Gough's paintings, 1-point drawing, 2-point drawing, realistic photo, 2 abstract drawings, and 1 drawing of anything I want to do. Whoopie-freakin-do!! It's 8:17 PM and like 20 freakin degrees in this house. I CAN'T EVEN FEEL MY FINGERS!!!!!!!!!!!! -Lisa [[ -- i never thought i'd fall ten feet under.. *i always thought someone would remember to look for me, before i reached the end. -- ]] # Sunday, April 06, 2003 ( 4/06/2003 11:02:00 PM ) Lisa SWEETHEART is bleeding in the snowcone ¦¯ ¦¯ ¯¦_ _ _ _ _ ¦¯ ( c a n ' t s t o p So smart she's leading me to ozone ¦¯ ¯ ¯ ¯ ¯ ¯¦ | ) MUSIC the great COMMUNICATOR ¦_ _ _ .. ( Use two sticks to make it in the nature...¦_ My brother is so rad! For my birthday present, he's taking me to get 2 industrial piercings on Friday. Awesome-awesome boy! He's even gonna pay for it, too! But if it's a lot of money, I said I'd chip in, even though it is my birthday present. lol. I said I'd buy him a c.d. for Easter. lmao. Maybe I will cause his birthday's not till July and he'd most likely have the c.d. by then. Poopies. I watched "The Ring tonight. It says you die 7 days after you watch the movie...so I'm gonna die on my birthday. lmao. Sucks to be me, doesn't it? haha. So before I "die" I'd like to say: "I LOVE YOU ALLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! lol. -Lisa SWEETHEART is bleeding in the snowcone ¦¯ ¦¯ ¯¦_ _ _ _ _ ¦¯ ( c a n ' t s t o p So smart she's leading me to ozone ¦¯ ¯ ¯ ¯ ¯ ¯¦ | ) MUSIC the great COMMUNICATOR ¦_ _ _ .. ( Use two sticks to make it in the nature...¦_ # ( 4/06/2003 04:18:00 PM ) Lisa I know Jill reads this, but I gotta "say" it: JILL LOVES ME!!!!!!! I LOVE YOU, TOO JILL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! non-sexually of course. =0Þ # ( 4/06/2003 01:05:00 PM ) Lisa bid my blood to run;` before i come undone So I did sneak out this morning. lol. I snuck out around 1:30 with Mario and snuck back in a little after 3:30 AM. I bet I'm gonna get caught one of these days. =/ We didn't go to my Uncle Bill and Aunt Rosie's house yesterday. My momma didn't feel like it. We might be going today, but I don't want to. So hopefully they'll let me stay home. Christina has volleyball, so we'll probably have to wait for her to come back home (6:30 PM) before we go. Nick probably won't go with us cause he never goes anywhere with the family. He hasn't even seen the new baby yet and he wasn't going to come with us yesterday because he went out "to the movies." I don't think there are any movies out right now that are 7 hours long, but I could be wrong. He left at 5:00 PM and wasn't home till after 12:30 AM. Interesting...We rented movies yesterday. None of which I wanted to see, of course. We got "Maid In Manhattan," "The Ring," "Monsters Inc." and "Lost Voyage." That's all for now, I have to write in my zine and do my homework. -Lisa bid my blood to run;` before i come undone # Saturday, April 05, 2003 ( 4/05/2003 06:39:00 PM ) Lisa "Let go" it's by 12 stones I feel so alone Again I know that I need you To help me make it through the night And I pray that you believe in me You gave me my strength to face another day alone I need you now, my friend More than you know When will we meet again? Cause I can't let go of you This world brings me down Again I know that I need you To help me make it through the night And I know that you're the one for me You gave me my strength to face another day alone I need you now, my friend More than you know - yeah yeah When will we meet again? Cause I can't let go, I can't let go As time passes by I find things never seem to change When I feel alone You bring me back to you And I need you now, my friend More than you know When will we meet again? Cause I can't let go of you No, I can't let go When I think how life used to be Always walking in the shadows Then I look at what you've given me I feel like dancing on my tiptoes I must say, every day I wake And I realize you're at my side For everything you give me Blessed, for all the tenderness you show I'll do my best With every breath that's in me Blessed, to make sure you never go There are times that I test your faith 'Til you think you might surrender And baby I'm, I'm not ashamed to say That my hopes were growing slender You walked by in the nick of time Looking like an answered prayer I know I'm truly blessed For everything you give me Blessed, for all the tenderness you show I'll do my best With every breath that's in me Blessed, to make sure you never go I'm blessed with love and understanding Blessed, when I hear you call my name I'll do my best with faith that's never-ending Blessed, to make sure you feel the same Deep inside of me You fill me with your gentle touch I know I'm truly blessed For everything you give me Blessed, for all the tenderness you show I'll do my best With every breath that's in me Blessed, to see your miracle # ( 4/05/2003 06:10:00 PM ) Lisa xmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..mmmmx xxxxxxxxm I used to know the sound of ||,xxxxxxxx xxxxxxx.. a smile in your vioce but right .|..xxxxxxx xxxxxxx.. now all i feel is the pain of.the |..xxxxxxx xxxxxxxxmb fighting starting up again m*..xxxxxxx xmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..mmmmx Later today, I'm going to my Uncle Bill + Aunt Rosie's house...again. We're giving presents to their new baby. We saw them like 2 or 3 weeks ago. Couldn't we have just given it to them then? I have to do my homework this weekend...especially French. I have all of my classes for next year. =) I'm taking Regular French 2, Arguement + Debate, AP English, Honors Geometry, Honors Chemistry, AP European History, + Regular Sociology (cause they don't offer Honors or AP). I hope I do well in Chemistry + Geometry. Science is my weakest subject. I don't think I'm sneaking out this weekend. lol. Unless Evan calls me. I don't understand why guys are scared to call me. Well, I know they're scared of my parents, but I go to a co-ed school, so of course guys are going to have my number + of course of few of them are going to call. No guy has ever had a problem calling me before, but this year...it seems like they're all scared or something. =/ xmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..mmmmx xxxxxxxxm I used to know the sound of ||,xxxxxxxx xxxxxxx.. a smile in your vioce but right .|..xxxxxxx xxxxxxx.. now all i feel is the pain of.the |..xxxxxxx xxxxxxxxmb fighting starting up again m*..xxxxxxx xmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm..mmmmx # Friday, April 04, 2003 ( 4/04/2003 09:28:00 PM ) Lisa I'm gonna start a riot you ''' don't wanna figth it 1,2 fuck you ''' don't tell me what to do I don't ''' wanna be like you can't you ''' see it's killing me i'm my own ''' worst enemy knock me down, ''' i'll keep moving its the art of losing I've been soooo bored lately. I have nothing to do. =/ After school today, I went online to check my mail and downloaded a few songs from my zines. Then I took a nap...Christina woke me up at 7:15 PM cause it was dinner time. lol. Me so sweepy. No one's online. =( Well, I'm blocking everyone except for the few people I actually talk to...so only like 20 people. haha. I think I have a stalker. He wrote me like 3 poems and drew a picture of me and is always saying how I "make him smile when I sign online" and I "make his world spin." I've only been talking to this dude for like a week. WTF!? Gabriella and Vince are at a father-daughter sock-up thing. Vince never went with me when I was younger...maybe that's one of the reasons I hate him so much. Oh, well. I don't feel well...nighty night, don't let the mini Lisa bugs bite. =0Þ I'm gonna start a riot you ''' don't wanna figth it 1,2 fuck you ''' don't tell me what to do I don't ''' wanna be like you can't you ''' see it's killing me i'm my own ''' worst enemy knock me down, ''' i'll keep moving its the art of losing # Thursday, April 03, 2003 ( 4/03/2003 08:30:00 PM ) Lisa 
You Attract Normal Guys!Not that "normal" is a bad thing... you just prefer not to get your heart broken. You've probably dated enough losers in your life, learned from it, and become an ultra cool chick. And it's this togetherness that attracts the right kind of guy. Healthy guys aren't afraid of intimacy or commitment. They'll call you after a first date, but they won't want to move in after one week. Normal guys can solve their own problems - and will help you solve yours. To keep things blissful with your normal guy (or to get the right one), it's easy. Continue to be the super incredible chick that you are, no emotional baggage or issues. Normal, incredible guys love girls like you. What Kind of Guy Do *You* Attract? More Great Quizzes from Quiz Diva # Wednesday, April 02, 2003 ( 4/02/2003 05:40:00 PM ) Lisa HAMSTERS RULE!! HAMSTER POWER!!!!!!!!!!!!! You are A:HAMSTER! You don't do much but run, eat, sleep, and smell. But, tiny and fluffy, you could win over even the meanest persons heart! Which Animal are you? brought to you by Quizilla # ( 4/02/2003 03:55:00 PM ) Lisa Once it's in your blood, you can't get it out. People really scare me. Why do I always end up meeting the scary people? Can't I meet someone who's remotely normal!!!? Yes, I know I'm not normal AT ALL, but come on! So I snuck out at 3:30 Saturday with Bijan...I haven't talked to him since, either. Effin boy! Oh, well. Screw him (not literally). School's been alrighty. I haven't gotten any homework since Thursday. Kinda creepy, yes? My friend asked me out...I think I'm gonna say yes. I'm sick of "playing games" back and forth with Bijan. That boy's toooo effin confusing! And he says I play the games. Ok...suuuure buddy, whatever you say...But I'll probably always like him. Jill called me a whore. =*( I'm not! Whatever, if doing one thing with one guy makes you a whore, then I'm the biggest effin whore there is!!!!! Once it's in your blood, you can't get it out. # |
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