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Monday, June 30, 2003 ( 6/30/2003 03:26:00 PM ) Lisa I'm sitting by the computer playing solitaire when the phone rings. Christina looks at the caller ID and tells me it's Vanessa. I figured she just wanted to go out to lunch because we've been trying to do that since Christmas. I pick up the phone and could tell she was crying. At first I thought something happened to her family. Then she told me my Mandy M. died yesterday because she had a brain tumor. I haven't talked to Mandy since 8th grade...except this one time I was at the orthodontist and I saw her so we talked for a few minutes. I was never close to her or anything, but I never made fun of her and I always smiled and said hi when I saw her, which I do to everyone. Her wake is tomorrow from 1 to 9 PM at the funeral home a block from my house. I'm going to go with Vanessa and Anna, who I also haven't talked to or seen since 8th grade. I was never close to Mandy, but it's so sad. I went upstairs to change and turned on the radio and "Good Riddance (Time Of Your Life)" by Greenday was playing....RIP Mandy. No one I know/have known has ever died. My great-grandfather died when I was 7 months old, so I don't remember anything about him and my grandpa (Vince's dad) died when I was about 10, but I only met him once. When my grandpa went into the hospital for heart surgery, all I could think about was him dying. When I went to see him in the hospital I couldn't look at him. He was so small, so helples. I was never affected by death. It's a way of life, but now I regret not knowing her more. I know my mom will remember her because in first grade, Mandy always ate her bologny sandwiches with chocolate chip cookies in them. That was the only way my mom could remember who was who...By what they ate and/or how they ate it. # Sunday, June 29, 2003 ( 6/29/2003 02:37:00 PM ) Lisa My parents are always complaining on how Nick never does things with "the family" so today we were all going to see a movie-Vince, my mom, and Gabriella go see "Finding Nemo" while me, Nick, and Christina go see "The Matrix Reloaded," but since that's not playing at Chicago Ridge Mall, Nick wanted to see "The Hulk," but it looks so stupid and I don't feel like wasting my time; I'll probably end up falling asleep. So we might go see "The Italian Job" or "2 Fast 2 Furious," which I think also looks stupid. Jill called to see if I could go downtown with her, but Vince said no because I went out 2 days in a row (whoa, big deal) and we were all going out together. So I go online to see what movies are playing and what time and ask Nick if he wants to see "The Italian Job" at 4:40 and he says he's going out with Chris! WTF is that!? That's soooo not fair! Vince goes, "you went out 2 days in a row" and I said "Nick goes out every day." Then he said "He didn't go out yesterday because I said no." Whoa. 1 freakin day Nick didn't get to go out. Whoopie do. What about every other day when he's out all day, goes to work, comes home to change and/or shower, then goes back out till 2 in the morning!? Bogus. # Thursday, June 26, 2003 ( 6/26/2003 04:07:00 PM ) Lisa So Jill dyed my hair black yesterday. I washed my hair like 4 times and there was still black dye coming out. lmao. The red wouldn't hold. :'( I'm going to buy hair bleach and bleach my tips then try dying them again...Think that'll work? I trimmed it today. I never noticed how long my hair is. Everyone says it's long, but to me, it was always the same length. Wow. My hair actually grows!!!? lol. # Monday, June 23, 2003 ( 6/23/2003 10:10:00 PM ) Lisa Bijan's blocking me! lmfao!!!! I signed onto my other screen name (LMEC87) on AIM and his name was on, so I looked onto my buddy list on lisavolley41387 and he wasn't on. lmfao. I find that HILARIOUS!!!! I wonder if he's blocking Jill and/or Sam...I'll have to ask them. # Saturday, June 21, 2003 ( 6/21/2003 01:52:00 AM ) Lisa I've come to realize that my family is fake. Every freakin one of us. We go around pretending to enjoy each other's company, pretending we're glad to see one another...but in reality, we're not glad. We don't like each other, half of us don't get along with one another. I have problems with my Uncles Bill and Loui. They hate me and I have no clue why. My mom mentioned me wanting to get my ears pierced again and they threatened to rip it out if I did. They say if they find out I do anything to my mom or don't help around the house or whatever, that they'd beat me...And really, they would. Some family I have, right? My cousins and aunt came over tonight and all they talked about was other members of our family. Even my mom talked about her mom. Now granted, I do talk about other members of my family and most definitely my parents, but I'm 16 years old. They're 40, give or take a few years. Honestly, they totally suck as role models. My Aunt Rosie and Diane sit on their arses all day and don't give a shat what they're kids do. My Aunt Tonya is so overprotective of her child, that she will NOT let anyone hold her for over 5 minutes unless they are "legally" and "adult." The moment the kid makes a sound, she will literally run over and take the kid away from you. On Father's Day, I was able to hold my little cousin Nina (who is one of the UGLIEST kids I have EVER seen in my life). The second my aunt came in, she gave Nina to the first person she saw, but within 5 minutes of me holding her, my aunt says she wants to take her outside. Yeah, my ass that's what you wanted to do. You just don't want me to hold her. But instead of saying something to each other, we all say it behind their backs. I cannot talk back to any of my aunts and/or uncles because my uncles will beat me and I swear to "god" if they ever lay a hand on me or my sisters, I will call the cops on them and I have support from every one of my cousins...Funny how my Uncle Bill lets my cousin Cathy talk back to him, but the second I reply to him and he doesn't like my response, he has to yell at me. It's not an age issue because I'm 4 months older than Cathy and John (twins). Maybe it's because I'm his big sister's first daughter and Cathy is his godchild. Whichever, he has no right whatsoever to treat us differently. All I wanted to write about was how HORRIBLE my family is and how FAKE we all are and now I'm all pissed off. That's just effin great! # Friday, June 20, 2003 ( 6/20/2003 08:18:00 PM ) Lisa I love going out with Jill, Stephanie, and Angie. I always have so much fun with them! We bombed 2 cars. A black mustang with mustard and then some girl's van with a cappacuino Slim Fast, mustard, and hunny. lmao. It was so great! We drove down to Evanston to see Jill's boyfriend, Tyler. He's friend's are so cute. awww. lol. Anywho, my cousins are on their way over. Till next time. # Sunday, June 15, 2003 ( 6/15/2003 01:30:00 AM ) Lisa So me and Nick are at our computers at 1:00 in the morning when we hear a big boom. I think it's just thunder because you can never predict Chicago weather. Then Nick goes "car accident!" So we go outside (leaving the back door open) and I hear honking, so I start walking towards 63rd street, Nick ran back in to get his cell phone. Yep, it was a car accident. Head on collision. Drunk driver on the wrong side of the road. Nick called 911, but some cop that saw said not to get an ambulance, but a squad car. It was loud because Melissa from across the street came out to look, too. She was telling Nick not to listen to the cop (we didn't know he was a cop at the time) and get an ambulance because the lady (the drunk driver) said she couldn't breath...If she couldn't breath, how could she tell us that then? Then Melissa and the cop started arguing and I was in a pissy mood because I didn't get to see the bands play (I'll write about that later or Monday) and I wanted to smack them both and tell them to shut up. Nick told me to get in the house because he left the door open (and we don't have a back gate cause the wind blew it off. lol. It was wooden) and cause "I'm little." So I'm walking back to the house and a lady starts talking to me. I'm like "who the Hell is this?" lol. Then I figured out it was the fat kid's mom. # Saturday, June 14, 2003 ( 6/14/2003 04:32:00 PM ) Lisa I suck. I've been totally neglected my blog. : ( Sorry. Did this week drag for anyone else? oii. School's over, but I have finals Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. blah. On the 24th, we go back for report cards. Sunday will be me and Tom's 3 week. That's right. 3 whole weeks! lmfao. Yesterday we went to visit my grandpa, he's home from the hospital now. He looks a lot better. Tomorrow, the family's going out to eat then we're going to my grandparents' house again. I hate going out with my family. =/ My cousins' parents are coming back on Tuesday (they went all over Europe). We're getting a new fence in our backyard because ours is old. I have a blurty. My username is Lisa13, so blame the lack of updates on the blurty. lol. My computer's being stupid today. It kept freezing and taking forever to load. Me, Sam, and Jonathan might go to Mojoe's Caffe to see a bunch of local bands play (Fent 21, 2 Toes to the left, 5th Wall, Down In Front, and All Too Common). I've heard of 5th Wall, Fent 21, All Too Common and Down In Front, but I've never heard of 2 Toes to the left. Hopefully they'll be just as good as the rest. I thought of the perfect name if I'm ever in a band (yeah, right), but I'm going to keep it to myself. lol. We had to draw a CD cover in art (one of my last assignments) and I didn't have any with me because I was in school, so I made my own up and made the name and the cover song. lmao. I'm so smart!! : ) Happy belated Friday the 13th. Cuts written by me Every time I fall There's a new cut on my knee And each time you call You say that you love me Whenever a tear begins to fall You tell me you're sorry But every time an old cut heals, A new one appears And when i tell you how I feel I can't help but break out in tears This can't be real You promised me we'd be together for years You told me you loved me And I said it back to you You told me you were happy And I told you I was, too You said our future was easy to see I guess none of it was true I believed your lies And told myself they weren't true Even though you made me cry I still had feelingsfor you, No matter how much I try You and me are through So once again I fall And new cuts appear on my knee I'll remember it all Especially when you told me you loved me I'll no longer expect you to call As my new cuts begin to bleed # Friday, June 13, 2003 ( 6/13/2003 06:06:00 PM ) Lisa fridayfive.org 1. What's one thing you've always wanted to do, but never have? Go to Italy. 2. When someone asks your opinion about a new haircut/outfit/etc, are you always honest? Not always, sometimes. 3. Have you ever found out something about a friend and then wished you hadn't? What happened? People always tell me things about other people, I keep it to myself. I just hope no one talks about me behind my back, but I know a certain few who do...I think they do anyway, they seem like the type of person that would do that. 4. If you could live in any fictional world (from a book/movie/game/etc.) which would it be and why? Snow White or Sleeping Beauty. Hello!? They find their prince. 5. What's one talent/skill you don't have but always wanted? Nothing really, I don't care. Sometimes I wish I could draw so I could draw pictures/covers to go along with my poems/short-stories...but I don't always want that. # Thursday, June 12, 2003 ( 6/12/2003 08:53:00 PM ) Lisa Yesterday was my parents 20th anniversary. I didn't get them anything, though. I don't have a job, so therefore have no money to buy them a present. I finished the make-up work I owe for French. I think I did it all, but I couldn't read the teacher's writing in her grade book, so I just guess what it said. Now I have 4 art assignments to draw and I'm done. Half of one is done, only 3.5 more to go!! ahhhh # Tuesday, June 10, 2003 ( 6/10/2003 09:58:00 PM ) Lisa Hello. Welcome to The Complete and Utter Idiot's Guide to Making a Baloney and Cheese Sandwich. Ready for Lunch? Good! Let's begin! We're going to start our journey by assuming that you already possess each of the individual items you'll be needing to make this sandwich. It's a bit of a stretch, I know, but Lord knows we don't have time to take you shopping. So, that said, the first thing you're gonna need is a place to make your sandwich. My suggestion would be a plate. So reach into your cupboard and grab a plate. Any will do. No, that's a bowl. Plates are flat. Right, yes, that's flat, but it's a cutting board. Plates are going to be round. Yes the bowl is round, but it's not flat, is it? Just.. Christ, forget it. Grab that cutting board you had in your hands. Perfect. Put it down. On the counter, not the floor. Much better. Alright, you're ready to start. You need bread. Personally, I prefer either wheat or sourdough, but you might prefer white, rye, pumpernickel, a French roll...you're just staring at me. What do you mean you don't have any bread like that? Like what? What kind of bread do you have? Wonder. Fine, it's pre-sliced. Take out two slices of Wonder Bread. Two. More than one, less than three. That's three. Put one back. Perfect. Place your two slices of Wonder Bread on your cutting board. See how easy this is? OK, you need some sandwich ingredients, open your refrigerator. Your refrigerator. Big thing in your kitchen. Stores food. Yes, and beer, too. That's the one. Take out the cheese, the baloney, the mayo...you're giving me that look again. Let's stop there. Cheese, baloney and mayo. Mayonnaise. It's a sandwich spread. White. No, that's Miracle Whip. Yes, it's a white sandwich spread but.. fine. Miracle Whip will do. Put it on the counter next to the bread. OK. Now we...where's the cheese and baloney? Didn't I just say... uhg! Go back to the refrigerator and.. no, leave the Miracle Whip where it is, just go back to the fridge and open it. Good. Grab the cheese. Any kind will do. Oh Jesus, just pick one! No, that's brie. It doesn't go well with baloney. What the Hell are you doing with brie? How about cheddar, do you have cheddar? It's probably orange. Yes! That's cheddar! Bring it to the counter next to cutting board. Now go back to the fridge. I'm sorry, are you getting dizzy? It can happen, get used to it. Open the fridge again. You're looking for baloney. God willing, it'll be pre-sliced. Baloney. It's meat. You're looking for a package filled with slices of meat. That's bacon. Yes! That's the baloney! Very good! Now bring that over to the food. No, we're done with the fridge, you'll just throw out whatever you don't use, I can't bear to go through the fridge disaster again. OK, now you're ready to start making a baloney and cheese sandwich. Open the Miracle Whip. Open it. Twist the lid off of the jar. What do you mean it won't come off? Twist the other direction. There ya go! Now you need a knife. Oh God. You don't need a sharp knife, you just need a spreading knife. Dull. Very dull. The duller the better. No! Not that! Put that down before you kill someone! Try to find a knife without a wooden handle. No, that has a wooden handle doesn't it? That probably means it's sharp. Don't test it to see! Just put it down! Find a dull, regular, boring knife! OK. Perfect. That's a nice simple spreading knife. Dip it into the Miracle Whip. Now lift it out of the Miracle Whip and spread it on the slices of bread. Carefully. Not too hard, you'll tear the bread. Harder than that. The knife has to at least touch the bread to leave the spread. There ya go. Now do the other slice of bread. Perfect! You're a regular Julia Childs now! She's a famous cook....nevermind. Now your bread is spread. Quit giggling. You are going to place a slice of baloney on one piece of bread. Open the package. No, this package doesn't screw open. Just pull the back end away from the rest of the package. See how it's opening up? Excellent. Take out a slice of baloney. Place it on one of the slices of bread. No, you don't need the knife for this. Good! You're almost there! Now it's time to cut the cheese. I said stop giggling. The cheese is unopened? OK, don't panic. Take the dull knife.. the other end, grab the other end of the knife! Slice the package of cheese open. Just jam it in there and.. don't worry about hurting the cheese! Just slice the damn thing open! Very good, you're getting to be really good with the knife. Lord help us all. Now take the block of cheese out and lay it on the counter. Just lay it on the counter, who cares if it's dirty! Like you're gonna be living long at this rate anyway! OK. Again with the knife, cut yourself a few slices of cheese. Thinner than that, you want more than two slices out of your block. Thinner. Thinner. Thinner! Just...measure with your pinky! Your pinky should be at least two slices thick. What are you...DON'T SLICE YOUR PINKY!!! God! You know what? Forget it! Throw the cheese away. Throw it away! You're just having a baloney sandwich today, I can't deal with this. Don't look at me like that, throw the cheese in the garbage! Now pick up one slice of bread and put it down on the other. Miracle Whip-side down. Well turn it over, you can't eat a sandwich with the Miracle Whip side facing out! Because I said so!!! OK. Pick up the sandwich. Congratulations! You've made a Baloney Sandwich! Dufus. # Sunday, June 08, 2003 ( 6/08/2003 10:14:00 PM ) Lisa Gabriella is a little pervert! She kept grabbing my boobs! WTF!? Yes, I know they're big, but still! Come on now! lol. Lisavolley41387 [6:53 PM]: hmmm...what'd you do this weekend? Tom [6:53 PM]: party for family Tom [6:53 PM]: you Lisavolley41387 [6:53 PM]: nothing, got yelled at, cleaned, homework Tom [6:54 PM]: cheated didnt you Lisavolley41387 [6:54 PM]: on what? Tom [6:54 PM]: me Lisavolley41387 [6:54 PM]: no. why would you say that? Tom [6:55 PM]: cause you are never ever online Lisavolley41387 [6:55 PM]: yes i am. i'm always online Tom [6:55 PM]: no your not Lisavolley41387 [6:56 PM]: i go on every day after school if my sister's not on the computer and my parents won't let us online past 10 Tom [6:56 PM]: so you are never on anymore Lisavolley41387 [6:57 PM]: i was on earlier today then my sister went online Tom [6:57 PM]: your not on when i am Lisavolley41387 [6:57 PM]: i can't go online past 10 pm because my parents won't let us and i don't get home from school till 3:30 Tom [6:58 PM]: so why dont you email me woman Lisavolley41387 [6:58 PM]: what's your email address? Tom [6:59 PM]: king----------@yahoo.com Tom [7:00 PM]: you got it now Lisavolley41387 [7:01 PM]: yeah, i'll e-mail you when i'm online and you're not Tom [7:01 PM]: ok Lisavolley41387 [7:02 PM]: was that the only reason you thought i cheated on you? Tom [7:03 PM]: ya Lisavolley41387 [7:03 PM]: ok Tom [7:03 PM]: why. Lisavolley41387 [7:03 PM]: i was just wondering cause he sort of came out of nowhere Tom [7:04 PM]: he? Lisavolley41387 [7:04 PM]: it Tom [7:05 PM]: sure sure dont belive you now Lisavolley41387 [7:05 PM]: fine. i told you i wouldn't do that and if i did i'd tell you because i wouldn't be able to handle the guilt. i know how it feels. Tom [7:06 PM]: i was playing Lisavolley41387 [7:06 PM]: i see...it's kinda hard to tell online...don't do that =/ Tom [7:07 PM]: ya Lisavolley41387 [7:08 PM]: so anywho.... This totally pissed me off! I am always online! ALWAYS! After school, if Christina's not online, I go online. I'm always getting yelled at for being on the computer. I knew when he said "cheated didn't you" he meant I cheated on him. I just didn't want to be like "I didn't cheat on you, why would you say that?" cause then he probably would've been like "I meant you cheated on your homework. quack quack." He's so complicated! Oiii. # ( 6/08/2003 03:07:00 PM ) Lisa This is my History report. It's supposed to be on facism in Europe, but probably has nothing to do with that. lol. Benito Mussolini was establishing a totalitarian regime in Italy. In 1919, he had begun his rise to power by advertising for war veterns to fight the politicians, who, Mussolini said, were destroying Italy. This was the beginning of facism in Europe. Facism was rooted in the nationalism that had reshaped Europe over the past century. Facism in a political philosphy that advocates a strong, centralized, nationalistic government headed by a powerful dictator. Facism in one of the most complicated issues in modern history. In 1918, at the end of a brutal and exhausting war, many Europeans were determined that another such conflict should never occur again. The world was to be made for safe democracy. 20 years later, such hopes seemed childishly naive. By then, 1 state after another had given way to authoritarian rule and a second world war was about to be unleashed. It's said that facism was 'the plague of the 20th century.' Europe saw the collapse of 1 democratic regime after another. There were 4 problems affecting much of the continent: 1. The Bolshevik Revolution of November 1917 led to communist threats in other states. 2. Many European powers were aggrived with the Versailles peace settlement. 3. Economic problems afflicted Europe. Many began to fear that the capitalist system was breaking down and 4. Many democracies were built upon insecure foundations. The future of several states was in jeopardy. The Great War produced a lasrge number of ex-servicemen who were ready to paramilitary groups. The overthrow of democracy is a highly complex affair. Some believe that the word facism comes from the Italia word fasces, which were bundles of rods, often attached to an axe, carried in front of the magistrates in ancient Rome as a symbol of authority. Others say it comes from fascio, a group or club. Fasci of workers in the Sicilian sulphur mines had organised strikes in the 1890's. In 1915, fasci were formed to campaign for Italy's entry into the war; and after the war, fasci were set up to oppose the communists. There will probably be no solution to the problem of facism. Facism is looked at on several levels such as: ideology, style and organisations, and actions. # Saturday, June 07, 2003 ( 6/07/2003 01:35:00 PM ) Lisa # Thursday, June 05, 2003 ( 6/05/2003 09:53:00 PM ) Lisa Vince is like having PMS or something today. Everything's all calm and quiet, but as soon as he gets home, he starts screaming at everyone. WTF!!? Then I asked him if he could drive me to Walgreens cause I didn't feel like walking and he never answered and when no one would get Gabriella from across the street, he got mad and there was a glass cup and a letter I got in the mail on the computer desk and he went crazy and threw the cup. Moron. Around 7, I asked him if I could go to Sam's house to watch a movie with her and Jonathan and he said to be home by 9. I said Jonathan wasn't coming to get me till 7:30 and we still have to go to Blockbuster to rent the movie, so we'd be by Sam's house around 7:45-ish. What movie is only an hour long? Honestly! I'm like, "So you want me to go there then make Jonathan take me home at 9 in the middle of the movie!!!!?" Then he said I couldn't go. I was so pissed off. It doesn't make ANY sense whatsoever! So I blarred my music in my room with all my windows open...just to annoy old Vinney a bit. haha. # |
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